- To order go to my Flower Essences for the Sensitive shop here.

- Want to learn about flower essences and play Fairy Detective? Next FEC100 Flower Essences class starts May 24th. Sign up here.

- The Fairy Beginner Fairy Healing class also gently introduces Flower Essences. It starts May 24th also. Check it out here.

especially to all the animal moms out there

Does anyone else feel this way?

I went shopping in the garden department of Home Depot, one of my favorite places. The flowers are amazing! Everywhere I looked there were blooms and color. I felt home.

I wanted to drink up the energy, like my soul was feeding.

I thought about the times I lived without Nature. How did I survive?

Do you think they’d notice me sleeping among the marigolds?

It’s Friday, so that means Fairy Online School Friday and lessons are delivered to the course page sites. Today’s fabulous featured class is FLOWER ESSENCES. If you ever wanted to learn about healing with flowers (they are excellent support for sensitive folk), this is the fun ONLINE class to do it.

there’s fun, helpful tips

You will have a blast making your Repertory book, meeting plants and connecting to Nature — learning hands-on while creating!

lots of really fun, illustrated worksheets that are filled with info how flowers can really help you

Class starts May 24th with the rest of the Fairy Online School classes. Go ahead and sign up now to reserve your space! Go here.

first roses up; made an essence of this rose last year

time to sit in the yard and groom it back to life

the garden centers out here in AZ all have flowers ready to plant

lots of green

first baby pinecones in process

Messages arrive in interesting ways…

The library had a ten cent book sale! They are demolishing the discount book building to build a brand new library building. There wasn’t much left when I arrived, but I was very attracted to this workbook immediately.

I flipped to this page.

Development of creative thinking? Elf language and create elf food? This is my kind of book.

I had goosebumps…looking at this fun book I felt back on path after getting a little knocked off. I remembered, Oh yeah. THIS IS what I love to do. Make learning fun. Engage the imagination. Drawings with stories. Maybe it was elf magic. But it gets weirder…

Last night I had a dream. I was moving out stuff from a room. I remarked how I didn’t have much furniture to move, only boxes. Inside a box I found a paper lantern. I thought in the dream, I didn’t know I had this. I forgot. I wrote in my journal the next morning:

Japanese Lantern

Here I was in the 10 cent store with few books to choose from and I had this book in my hands — the elf workbook, and on page 160 there was the exact paper lantern I held in my hands in the dream. Interesting, eh?

Colors of a place: from the Fairy Detective Clairvoyant class

from the Fairy Beginner class

From the Animal Mediumship class

From the Flower Essence class

from the Care of the Sensitive class

from the Fairy Healing the Feminine class

from the Talking to Angels, Guides and Dead People class

Great response to our Fairy Online School sale!

Classes are $15 off until Friday. Did you sign up and reserve your space yet? See the catalog and pick out your class here.

what I DO like – my Girls

We are all trying to “find” ourselves underneath the masks, the mud, the shoulds…

I am discovering… that a very strong voice inside of me is emerging. It’s vocal right now, and it’s loud.

We all have that voice. It’s our soul, sometimes whispering, sometimes screaming. And screaming can be through our bodies’ cries of illness or  through the complaints from our rebellious spirit.

I am discovering…that there are a lot of things I should like that I really don’t like, and I’m tired of saying I like it. Perhaps you can relate. In no particular order here’s a small list:

1. I should like Twitter, but I don’t. It’s like a fast-moving escalator with everyone screaming at once with no real connection to each other. Sometimes, there is a voice that comes through the madness you can hear but it’s like finding someone waving in a crowd in an airport. That’s too much work to find them. I also hate new followers that already have 300,000 followers and don’t give a crap who I am or what I do. 
2. Many vegetables. I eat broccoli, but it doesn’t taste great. I only like green beans that come in the can and have salt in them. I do like salads because you can add all kinds of yummy things to them and they are interesting visually.
3. Being friendly to people I don’t like. I have come to the conclusion from age and experience that you don’t need to be nice to mean or jerky people. They don’t understand it and they don’t appreciate it. Often, being nice is an invitation for them to take advantage of you.
4. Cleaning.
5. Parties. I HATE small talk. I bore easily which is probably not a good trait. I like to talk about things in depth or hear people’s stories.
6. Okay, I don’t like hearing stories about health issues. Really don’t like that. I am visual and empathic so I don’t need to hear about your last stay in the hospital where they cut into your stomach and ripped out all the bloody parts.
7. Insensitive sensitive people. These folks may not be truly sensitive, or maybe they are and they become so hardened to protect themselves they have become the insensitive people who say ridiculously insensitive stuff that comes out of their mouths like projectile vomit.
8. Surrender. It’s probably the definition I don’t like that is incorrect. And there’s lots attached to it including TRUST, but when you’ve trusted and it went horribly wrong, it’s super hard to do. Goes along with the one line I hate more than anything, “God only gives you what you can handle.” Bull poopy. The biggest bull poopy I’ve ever read. Then you feel guilty you are strong.
9. I always bitch about this. I was even thinking about making a weekly post of spiritual sayings I found that don’t really say anything, or worse, are unrealistic. They usually fall into the category of “don’t worry and just be calm and at peace even though your house is on fire,” or “think and be like a monk even though you have bills to pay and a ton of responsibilities.”
10. And finally, I’m supposed to like Facebook Biz pages…

I bitched the other day here about Facebook and ended up in the New York Times Small Business page “freeing myself from Facebook”. I think my rebellious, inner spirit called out to the rebellious spirit of the writer of that page. It was an interesting nod from the Universe/God that it’s okay for me to object to things I “should” like because everyone else says I should like it. It’s even okay to be negative! Wow, what a spiritual concept! It’s freeing. It’s empowering. Because by doing so, you walk your own path, and you learn who you are under all the mud.

May Session Starts May 24th (New Start Date)

A new session of Fairy Online School REGISTRATION starts May 1st, okay, today as I mention it, for you early birds. And we aren’t just about fairies. With classes now hosted over at the beautiful, organized Schoology site with a course page for each class, I guarantee you will learn with fun how to heal with Nature, communicate with animals and the spirit world, and tame your sensitivity and use it as the gift it is. Sounds lovely, yes? May is a busy time for classes, so join the crowd and reserve your space!

New classes include Fairy Joy and Fairy Healing Tools, which the latter will have a neat format of video teaching lessons alongside fun workbook pages!

There’s also:

• Rocks and Trees Healing
• Empath Skills class
• Flower Essences
• Clairvoyance
• Rose healing
• Care of the Sensitive with Nature
• Animal Mediumship
• Talking to Angels and Ghosts

But Wait…There’s a Big Sale!

$15 Off on All Classes For This Week Only (Until May 4th)

Head on over to the catalog to check out classes over here. And sign up for your favorite class as Spring/Summer is the perfect time to learn about healing, Nature and fun and take advantage of this big sale.

As I write this, I hear the neighbor chickens caw and whistle loudly, which brings up how the last few weeks I’ve been rushing around like a crazy chicken. (No offense to the chickens, but you do get very loud when you lay eggs.) I’ve been trying to be very responsible, be good, get things done, and I feel like I’ve been attempting to please some unknown source by all of my activity. The expectations and my to do list have overwhelmed me and the list seems to grow like a weed.

Listening to my wise basset hound yesterday, I took some time out to relax this weekend, sit on a swing in Nature and contemplate what the rush was all about. Immediately, guidance came in that I needed to make a schedule. I’ve been busy with my business, but then I also took on a part time job that I love. I hadn’t entirely juggled the two yet.

Mapping out the schedule of what I needed to do and placing it in little time blocks, I had an epiphany at 3:30 in the afternoon.

I’m visual and it was all there in a clear picture. What I was asking of myself was unrealistic, even insane. I could see before me that I only had a certain amount of hours in the day to do what I needed to do and I was expecting so much more.

This is not a new struggle.

As a sensitive person, I often forget that I do overwhelm easier than most because I take in so much information and feelings at once, but I insist on to living as a non-sensitive, driven person. I guess in some ways, I would be considered what Elaine Aron would call a “high sensation seeking sensitive,” I bore easily and I have a ton of creative, hummingbird energy which soups me up. I also come from a successful, achievement-oriented family, which translates to driven, and ambitious. Back in the day, I used to be Type B and I liked it. But now I found myself hearing that small voice inside of me whispering “not enough yet, keep pushing.”

That voice didn’t matter now. I had the proof in front of me. Unless I cloned myself or hired several assistants to do the work I wanted to do for me, it wasn’t going to happen. I was going to have to set limits with that very real voice. Sorry, voice, but here’s the schedule, here’s the time I have allotted, and unless, you can find me an extra seven hours in the day, this is staying.

I reflected on my parents’ lives. My dad had his own business and worked what seemed like twelve hour days. He didn’t have to raise children, clean house, or make dinner. He could focus on just work. When my mom went back to school and then work, she also brought work home to do, and I don’t know how she did it. She still had to cook, run a household, and take care of a family. No wonder she had back problems. I think deep down I was trying to emulate her and instead of back issues, I had headaches.

I looked at my own life in comparison. My life right now is as a single animal mom and I juggle the pt job, the business, my own ambitions and schooling, the incontinent, elderly dog who needs help getting around, the large yard that needs tending, the rest of the menagerie and their health issues, and it doesn’t seem like that much, but looking at this schedule, I realize for me, it is. And having this schedule with its little boxes so everything can be more manageable, and there’s still room for rest and family and myself sounds more healthy balanced to me, which is the goal or it really should be. I didn’t see that in my mom’s life. I will have to accept my limits and be strong standing by them. I thought it was because I am very sensitive I can’t do much, but this exercise has showed me that it’s not about being too sensitive, it’s about being realistic of what is humanly doable/possible for me, not the voice and what it can do, but I can do. I will have to risk disappointment.

Episode 4 is up from the Fairy Fabulous Web Show.

Is there something you loved to do as a child? Are you doing an element of it today in the work you do? Head on over to my Tumblr or YouTube site to watch “Why I draw.”  (And sign up as a subscriber/follower while you are there!)

I really like Facebook. I’ve created a support system of friends I can rely on. In the early days, FB was amazing for small businesses. You could post to your biz page and lots of folks would see it and word of mouth increased. Not so much lately. A couple of months ago I started bitching to friends. The bitching got worse. I noticed in my journals “FB PAGE” consistently made it to my “feels bad” list each week. With FB, I felt like I was climbing desperately uphill. It got worse. Now FB is withholding your page views unless you promote each post at $5 a piece. I understand you are trying to please your investors and make money, FB. That’s good. But this feels yucky. I made an announcement on my FB page I was disbanding my biz page. 4 of the 400+ saw it. It’s like a running joke now. I created an event. You used to be able to create and event and invite people. I can’t find the invite button, but I can promote it for $10.00. 2 people saw that.

Feel free to follow or subscribe to my personal page instead. Social media is a good thing if it works for us. Just like any tool, tools make our job easier, not harder. Social media is just a tool. Oh, and don’t get me going about Twitter and its opposite of connection….but that’s another day.

My Saturday routine: recap my life, touch base with me and keep track of guidance, but visually, of course.

I adore these crayons. I’d like a mountain of these crayons.

Ed Emberley’s beautiful words from Lynda.com documentary; isn’t that what we do when we write?

We are vulnerable when we create

When we create anything, whether a piece of writing, a crayoned drawing or succulent dish, we are vulnerable. We reveal a little part of ourselves that was tucked safely away. As we grow stronger, we are able to bring even more and more of our creations into the world. What helps the most is having Validating Souls surrounding us. These folks mirror our worth back to us and support us when we stumble and step into potholes. They remind us who we really are under the costumes of what and who we think we should be.

Those potholes are the opposite of Validating Souls. They come in the form of people. They aren’t bad people by far, just different species then you. It’s like you came from the tribe of Ookie Dookies who all loved music and liked to write and were round and short. Some time long ago you wandered off from the tribe to find berries and got lost. You were found and taken in by the Ipsy Lipsies. They loved and cared for you but still look at you like you are a little strange because you aren’t into science and math and have long arms and legs. This whole other tribe doesn’t even think like you — their vision and perception have a whole other view because they wear very different glasses to see through — big red, solid frames with angular curves.

It’s hard for a sensitive person to not feel rejected when their Ipsy Lipsie tribe comes to visit and looks at you like you have three heads. They just can’t see you, not with those glasses that they wear, and that’s hard not to take it personally when you feel everything so deeply. You just want to feel accepted and that you belong.

The other day I sent out Episode 3 into the world of my web show. Those web shows are a part of me that have long been forgotten and want to be heard. I ran into an old acquaintance the other day. I sent her the link to my show that is on my new video Tumblr blog. On that blog, I share all my video creations, my sketches and my process. So far, I only share other folks’ videos there if I am truly inspired and out of all the blog posts so far, I only shared one. She wrote back thanking me profusely for sharing the link–she loved the video I posted, the video I didn’t create! My stomach fell to the floor. There wasn’t one comment about my work. I was back to being that little girl being raised by Ipsy Lipsies who had blended into the wallpaper and wasn’t seen.

To the rescue, was a few members of my Ookie Dookies. They heard my distress call from far away and came swarming in. “Loved the bird drawings, they are perfect,” my beautiful friends said. “I love your way with story.” They saw what I saw and showered me with shared visions. They speak my language.

I will remember this whenever I step into those potholes and fall deep in for several days. I will call out my distress call for my tribe. And of course, I will keep creating as I continue to grow strong.

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I love to share what I’ve learned through story that usually has some whimsical illustrations or two. If you like my writing, consider taking one of my written classes, or buying my books. You can see my story studio here.

I want to hear from my readers! I’ve been planning out classes for Fairy Online School. I’d love to hear from you what classes you’d be interested in? I included the ones that I am offering and new ones I’m considering creating.

Episode 3 of the Fairy Fabulous Web Show from Designing Fairy is now up:

Head on over to my Tumblr blog to watch.

I’m learning how to set limits with the outside world. This may be the biggest challenge for Empathic/Sensitive people, and a huge source of why we overload, since we take in so much to understand, transmute and heal. The tools I’ve been learning on how to do this are included in the new class, MT200: More Tools for Sensitives. This class covers many of the common problems Sensitives encounter and provides tools to help. Go HERE NOW to read more about the class and sign up. Starts this month!

April Classes that Start Friday:

Flower Essences FEC100

April Session of Empath Skills

Care of the Sensitive with Nature

To sign up for those classes, GO HERE.

Whether you read my book…

Or read the blog on this website, I am happy to present some more resources for you.

The Care of the Sensitive Class is all about having tools in Nature you can reach for to support your sensitive self. Everything is gentle and simple including good advice on things like sensitive tummies. It’s offered in April and the link is here.

The new class, Develop Your Empath Skills, has an April session that starts Friday. This is a great class for working on Boundaries and determining what is yours and what is others’. We also cover Reading Energy and Clearing Out. Get your seat here.

And the new class, MT200, is all about intuitive problems and issues you might have as a sensitive and conquering those. That class starts April 26th. Join us here.

Lots of support and lots of answers!

Last night I was up worrying. I had much on my mind. And as I closed my eyes to try to fall back asleep, I felt invisible arms take me into a warm embrace and I heard, “Everything will be all right.” It felt like a female presence but I couldn’t identify at that moment who it was. It was beautiful and comforting and I really needed that.

Everything will be all right

I hadn’t had an experience like that in a long, long time, and it reminded me of what had happened to me in college way back when.

I was into the second year of college on a large campus in Maryland. I loved the excitement and resources of a big college but my empathic self found it completely overwhelming. On top of it, I was in a bad relationship, and I wanted to switch majors out of a demanding, unreasonable design program and I couldn’t. It was no wonder I was having mysterious panic attacks at the time. I was seriously contemplating leaving school for some place safer. One weekend, I was sleeping over my boyfriend’s family home and was placed in the guest bedroom. The room was small and a little stuffy with a tiny window for light to stream in. I felt very alone and scared. Looking back, it was one of those rock bottom moments. I squeezed the bedsheet around me as hard as I could and just broke down in tears. I am not a crier — it has to be big for tears to readily flow. I think the spirit world recognized that because I felt someone take my hand and hold it. At first I was naturally startled. No one was around in the tiny little room. I fully expected to look down and see a hand connected to a person. But the warmth connected to that hand overpowered the fear and spoke volumes of what I needed just at that moment.

We can be hugged for a moment or feel those delicious tingles when we are feeling Spirit. Either it’s the Divine reminding us we are not alone and still connected, loved ones passed over, or personal angels, it’s all the same: LOVE when we need it.

Have you had a similar experience? 

EPISODE 2:  a story, NEW, about possibilities being born. Featured product involving fairies. And, creative idea involving visual journaling goals.

No tv show episodes this week as I am diligently working away at a new book. But if you missed Episode 1 or Episode 2 you can find them over here at my Tumblr video blog or scroll down through the posts here at the site.

A little more info about the new class MT200: More Tools for the Sensitive that starts April 26th. This class focuses on your intuitive self’s health. Here’s a syllabus! Remember, we need a certain amount of students for the class to go, so if you are interested, sign up now or it could get cancelled. Go here for info.

It’s taxes day here in the States…grr grr grr.

But at least I’m having fun today creating Episode 2 of the Fairy Fabulous Web Show newsletter. Coming tomorrow.