I haven’t had time in awhile for Sketchbook Saturday, so I thought it was a good idea to post one today. I thought this card was super appropriate for the times right now. When I finishing my calendar I felt this card was a fitting one to include and summed up what I had gained or learned in 2012. We can go through some pretty awful experiences in our lives but something special survives and can’t be destroyed.
Z is for Zinnia.
LESSON OF THE ZINNIA THAT SURVIVED THE LAWN:
This month’s lesson is about…survival and joy. Often in life we go through hardship, loss and trauma, which chips away at that delicious, child-like innocence we came in with. Years ago, my family and I planted a small garden. We bought expensive dirt and laid out the garden with care. Each plant was picked to bring joy to the yard. But what we didn’t count on was the conditions: strong Arizona heat that reached 106 degrees and killed every plant but one: the hardy Zinnia. Zinnia is the fairy joy flower. Even in the toughest conditions and experiences, there’s a precious part of us that doesn’t die. Hint: it’s the part that still knows how to giggle.
A little about the artwork:
I wanted the zinnia to stand out and to be very stylized to show its beauty and simplicity. I love the art crayons which gave the wonderful textures in the background.
ORDER: This card/art is in my 2013 Healing Fairy Alphabet calendar available over at Lulu. You can order yours here.
For anyone who has ever felt not enough:
New short film:
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Share if you want…your Not Enough experiences. Better yet, your More Than Enough experiences below in the comments.
Until the end of October (that’s next week, Folks) many of the Fairy Online School classes have Early Bird Specials! Woo Hoo! Take advantage of the lower tuition rates and sign up now! Head on over to the catalog to choose your classes. Lots of fun happening and lots of extras. We are no longer “just email” classes, but fancy and multi-media! Ooooooooh.
Gather up the virtual popcorn (the best kind, no calories) and check out the Trailer for Fairy Online School. The Winter One Session starts on Friday. If this doesn’t entice you, this ain’t for you. Have fun and enjoy and of course, reserve your space in class! Tell a friend.
Friday starts a new session of the Fairy Online School. We always have fun and I love sharing what I’ve learned with folks so they have lots of tools and feel empowered. This year I’ve learned so much about marketing and there seems to be lots of formulas zooming around, that to me, have actually gotten me turned off from most marketing I receive. I tried some of that and I didn’t enjoy it, and it didn’t work for my tribe. All that type of marketing actually exhausted me, taking away from my creativity. So instead, I will do the Ronni method. (Okay, to be fair, I did make that funky trailer, but that was fun to make.) Classes start Friday and if you are interested and you really feel you can benefit right now with what is being offered, do sign up. I’d love to work with and assist you, and I know you will have fun. There’s a two payment option, and Paypal Bill Me Later for most classes, and many are very affordable under $60.00.
And for the many on small budgets, I offer my new TREAT SHOP, where you can pick up a tool or two for under $20.00 that can really help while still supporting the writer/artist to be able to eat..hey, that’s me! I love win-win situations.
I could bug you via email over and over until the day school starts, but I had one organization do that to me and it felt like Mom nagging me to do the dishes. Hmmm…not so much.
Look forward to working with the new students and fairy blessings to you,
Only 3 Left at Pre-order Price
Healing Fairy Alphabet Calendar — 12 months of whimsical, healing art and lessons from Nature. I ordered a pile of calendars and most are claimed and have their orders in. That leaves 3 calendars left at the discount price of $25.00 before their prices go up! Snatch them up! They look like this:
Pretty cool, huh? Order through Paypal here while I still have 3 left!
This week I explore my non-negotiables.
What’s a non-negotiable? I’ve been learning from my backyard. When I rented my Fairy Castle, it was the yard that I fell in love with. I dig roses and there’s quite a few, including the kind that smell really good. This backyard is like a little park I can sit in with my Emma Lou and swing back and forth as we admire the beauty.
When I water the plants, I watch their little leaves reach upwards in a smile. When I forget, in the inhospitable Arizona heat, I will find leaden leaves and a definite frown. It’s simple, but I am those plants. When I nurture and feed me, I pump up with color. I’m a shiny, happy thing. When I forget to water me, well…
But here’s the thing. I’ve taken in through my adult life some seriously faulty beliefs–that messed-up perception I talked about in my last post. It’s taken awhile and lots of work, but I am seeing those beliefs that include:
only when I make enough money will I deserve to have some rest
only when I give what others want will I have support
only when I work 80 hours a week and show I’m responsible will I get a pat on the head and what I need
Yuck!!! I am seeing that none of these beliefs work for me. I am sure you have some ONLYs in your brain swirling around. These need to be pulled! And in their place, I plant my non-negotiables.
In order to thrive as a Ronni plant, I need those non-negotiables. Having this yard and visiting Indian Gardens frequently I realize with certainty I MUST have constant interaction with Nature. It’s not lazy or irresponsible to take time out in Nature. On the contrary, I find it’s productive: I’m balanced and less emotional or reactive to other people’s stuff when I have time in the yard or the forest. It also feeds my creativity and my curiosity, which becomes many classes and books.
And in my usual, creative, visual fashion, I’ve been creating a chart to keep track of my non-negotiables (each drawn into a circle) as they come along. (To see it, Go Subscribe to My Newsletter.)
If I follow this line of thought, I also look at what waters me and what doesn’t. Translated, this means, what supports me and what doesn’t? Where do I feel SEEN, HEARD, SUPPORTED and APPRECIATED? Where do I feel ignored and forgotten, unimportant, or even poisoned? Let’s not focus on those weeds, just pull em’ out!
What are your non-negotiables and where do you feel watered?
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I had a light bulb moment this morning.
One of the reasons why I left my church, was for me, there wasn’t enough meat. I had graduated, and needed more answers to my many spiritual questions. I was frustrated and aggravated for months and months by the simple “everything is love” and “just love everyone and see their higher self” philosophies. Yes, these statements are true but it didn’t answer anything for me. It throws a lot of things under the rug. If you are an abusive jerk who is running over my boundaries and I just “see your higher self and love you” that usually translates into more boundary invasion and more abuse, because even if I am putting up boundaries, and being nice and loving, someone like that is going to like the challenge of seeing how he can bash right through those boundaries. This more simple line of thinking is a surface spirituality that ignores the many layers, including what’s thrown under the rug.
This experience had me thinking about psychic protection and what I’ve been teaching. Putting a white bubble around me for protection is nice and sweet, but as an empath, I can still become amazingly sponge-y and open anyway and take in a ton that isn’t mine. That bubble won’t do crap for me if: I don’t know I’m taking something on and am feeling awful; don’t realize I’m taking something on because someone else’s stuff is triggering mine; or a whole bunch of other reasons.
Basically, I determined that we need to tackle the psychological and intellectual stuff underneath our reactions to be fully protected. That’s why my book has so many instances we need different tools for, because it is isn’t a simple thing of putting up a white bubble. A white bubble forms an intention to create a strong boundary around you. You’re putting a STRONG line in the sand that says, “I don’t want this dark stuff near me.” That’s why it works. Your will is loud and clear. As empaths, our major work is creating those very strong boundaries to protect ourselves. The problem is we came in with very thin or little boundaries so we can read the energies around us. It’s a gift really, to be able to do that when we can control it, and there’s BALANCE, which is then a tightrope to walk. I still have days I even curse my sensitivity and get tired of always having to do this much work to keep that balance, but I think it’s a harder world to walk when you are so unaware of any energies at all.
We also need to clear out the beliefs in the way taught to us that prevent us from creating strong boundaries, which for me would include that I have to be nice and loving to everyone around me, which would make the church’s stance counterproductive to what is best for me.
Perhaps, then, the white bubble is a beginner’s technique and folks learn where they are at. And as we go further along this path, deeper and deeper, we are going to need more advanced learning and tools. There’s no judgement, just different levels to drop down into, but just like in school, if I am ready for sixth grade, I’m not going to stay back in third grade for those around me.
And for now, when I empathically carrying something that isn’t mine, I need to go in and ask why. Was it as simple as I was super-open and tired and then I walked into Walmart to buy milk and just got slimed with negative stuff stuck in the air? Or, did I pick up on sadness and I wasn’t acknowledging the sadness I was already feeling before I stepped into the store so it triggered mine? Or even yet, was I still corded and deeply connect