Outside the wind blows strong
The rain has turned to snow
Your flannel shirt hangs on the bedroom door
Your smell lingering
Long after you've graced this world
What proof do I have
That you existed?
That you physically walked this earth?
How long do memories last?
And what exactly are they made of?
My heart breaks with each minute that passes
My soul grieves
In despair
And my body aches to touch you
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In the blink of an eye
Fate can turn to Destiny
Leaving a trail of memories
To be held
Like grains of sand
Slipping through your fingers
If whispers could carry
Your voice to my heart
Unbroken, reckless
Wild, I'd fly
But chained I stand
Holding only the last remnants
Of what was once
Ours
Thunder booms, shaking the roof
Of our turn of the century saltbox home
The sky is gray and dismal
Yet the irony of the warm lit interior
Plays with my mind
Our dreams were in this home
The hopes we had for our future
The children we would raise
Two boys and a girl
Who sit parked in front of Sponge Bob
While our lives fall down around us
Shattered are the memories
Pierced by the image of
The dark haired woman
That I saw him
Tenderly touch
Then lean in for a hug
Future? What is that?
I no longer know
Taking care of the children
Trying to put on a brave face
Home cooked meals traded in for frozen dinners
I laugh at how ironic my life has truly become
He's "in love"
Because obviously what we had was just a game
The children we had were created in the moment
Not born from love
How can he throw it all away
I wonder
My tears slide down my face
As the clouds break free
With rain
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At one time I loved you
And every which way the wind blew
I thought of you
And time went on
I became
Myself
And realized
That
I still
Loved you
Who knew
That life can be born
From desire
And love can be
Created from
The intricate labyrinth
That binds one person to the next
And seperates strangers
From friends
And who can harbor
The reality
That fate has destined us
Holding us captive
To our hearts
Every whim
Surpassing the very essence
Of right and wrong
And leaving us
In the presence of
This moment
We talked for hours
That night
About everything
And nothing
It was a time
When the world around us ceased to exist
Selfishly, I savored everything about him
Hungry, greedy, consumed
By his presence
His very being
And he answered
He fulfilled my hope
And my deepest desire
Yet kept me longing for more
Leaving me
To still my soul
And silence my heart
And later
To pick up the pieces
Shattered by grief
I remember that night
When our eyes met across the room
And how you snuck one more glance when
You thought I looked away
My tears drop
Slow at first
Than unabashed
As I remember how we loved
So recklessly
And how I lost
My everything
The sun rose and set on you
The stars fell like rain when you were around
Gone too soon
They say
As my heart leaves my body
And dances wildly
With your soul
In the shadows of my past
I sit in slience
Hiding from the fears that haunt me
Taunting me to follow
Into the fog filled depths
Of the great unknown
The place where
I will come face to face
With Regret
Whose name I know well
And whose every move
I have memorized
It is here
Where sorrow hangs
Heavy and thick
And evil peeks around every corner
The cries of the past
Ring through my ears
And Defeat beckons to me
Leading me down the path
Of familiarity
To find
Feelings of despair
And hopelessness
But yet, even amidst
This despondant and lonely place
Is the promise that there is something more
Another chance
Perhaps a place
Where I can escape
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I absolutely love this! Left me breathless!