Over the years I have encountered a few creatures dwelling in my mind that can impede growth. Fortunately, these critters can be trained and kept in check. Below are my field notes from my experiences with the three most common species.
Habitat: Your mind
Diet: Flattery and attention
Habits: Strictly solitary
The Ego is a sensitive soul. It craves reassurance and takes failure quite personally. Desperate to convince itself that it is valuable, the Ego and will avoid situations where failure might occur. “Don’t enter the contest, don’t send the manuscript!” the Ego will plead, because it’s easier to say I didn’t try than I didn’t succeed.
Unfortunately for the Ego, failure is a necessary part of growth. We learn the most when we push ourselves out of our comfort zones and try new things. The best way to succeed is to increase our failure rate, and the best way to learn is to face our failures head on and look at what worked, what didn’t, and why.
Habitat: Your Mind
Diet: Negativity
Habits: Venomous. Often nocturnal, brings up worries at bedtime.
A wild Critic can lash out at your work (or life in general) with potent venom. “You aren’t talented enough,” the Critic will whisper in your ear. “Look at this other person’s work. It’s so much better.” The Critic will dredge up your mistakes and mockingly parade them before your eyes at your moment of greatest weakness.
As terrible as it sounds, A Critic can be helpful if it is trained to come out only when needed. The Critic is handy when deciding which thumbnail composition is better and why, or editing that manuscript in the second draft. But if it starts telling you that everything you make is garbage or that you’re not nearly as good as so-and-so, it’s time to go back in the kennel.
Habitat: Your Mind
Diet: Inactivity
Habits: None
The sloth really wants you to succeed. It does. But it would rather not give up its Netflix marathons and surfing Facebook on its phone.
The Sloth is the creature that will tell you that your first thumbnail is good enough. Why bother trying other compositions? It will discourage you from taking those figure drawing classes you need, because that sounds like a lot of work after all. If you have a feeling that you need to work on your craft but you never seem to get around to doing it, you might be contending with one of these creatures.
Not to worry! Sloths can be trained. When properly employed, a Sloth can stop you from becoming a perfectionist, particularly on the projects that just aren’t worth the time. If you’re getting paid a pittance for an illustration, it probably isn’t time to make the Mona Lisa. All it takes to train a Sloth is a little bit of priority shifting and the adoption of some new habits.
If you have a Critic, Ego or Sloth, don’t beat yourself up over it. It’s normal! Identify the species that is impeding your growth the most, and take a small step this week to help tackle it.
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I’m waiting for critiques from four readers on the second draft of my novel. I know what I think needs work, and it will be interesting to see if the readers agree.
Meanwhile:
Despair v. Hope. I’m vacillating between hope and despair. My gut tells me this draft is a big improvement, but my inner critic is harsh. I don’t know if I should hide my head in shame or tall taller with pleasure in what I’ve done.
Cleaning the office. Yes, that chore got done. Sorta. I’m doing neglected chores, like filing, updating my bio on various websites, planning holiday meals, and actually reading.
Shorter pieces. I’m working on some shorter pieces. I’ve had a nf article accepted by Highlights, I’m working on another short project, and I’m re-reading almost every failed picture mss in my files to see if I know how to fix any of them. I wrote a piece for our regional SCBWI newsletter. These aren’t time-wasters, but important things which just get muscled out of the way by the heftier novel. I’m glad to be playing with the chihuahuas for a change.
Preparing Emotionally for the Next Draft. I’m getting ready emotionally to “kill my darlings,” to give up my attachment to the current plot and form of the novel if needed, and to dig in and work hard.
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What do you do when you’ve got a portfolio full of the most astounding, town-leveling, make-them-throw-their-panties-on-stage artwork ever seen by a children’s publisher anywhere?
You ask someone to critique it.
Yep. You solicit feedback. Ask for comments. Get a fresh perspective (because, as Anton Ego would painfully remark, you’re probably “fresh out.”)
Listen, I get it. You’re awesome. Your work is trippin-dicular, Dude. You rock the casba, rock the casba.
As an artist, a certain amount of confidence in your work is essential. You can’t go around meekly asking everyone, “Is this okay? Do you like this? Do you approve?”
You wont get anywhere and you’ll get smashed down by those people who love to smash meek approval-seekers. On the other hand, well-meaning friends and moms who want you to be happy will pump you up with praise that may or may not be warranted. “Everything you do is art!”
You won’t get anywhere, but you’ll feel better.
What to do, what to do…
One thing you can do is seek out honest feedback from people who understand your market and your industry. Last week, a small group of Portland illustrators got together with the sole purpose of reviewing and critiquing each other’s portfolios. Okay, there was beer, too. Dual-purpose, admittedly.
Most of us are trying to learn more about the children’s publishing market. This kind of small, focused group is perfect because everyone is speaking the same language. Throw a tattoo artist or animator in there and it wouldn’t be as effective for them. Personally, I got some totally fresh perspective on my portfolio that I was able to apply right away.
Things I didn’t see. Stuff I hadn’t considered. Feedback I needed to know.
We’ve also decided to start meeting on a monthly basis. Another rock-solid benefit of a group like this is, well, simply the people. We now have a small tribe of individuals who share a goal, will cheer each other on, and still be honest enough to say, “I don’t think that’s working for you. Did you try…”
It doesn’t really matter what level you think you’re at as an artist. You think you’re awesome; here’s what you need to work on. You think you suck and don’t deserve to be at the same table; actually, your stuff is pretty cool. Either way, you need someone to tell you.
Artists have the worst time accepting feedback on their work. It’s inherently subjective and tailoring art to appeal to the masses is exceptionally difficult, if not impossible (and why would you want to?). That’s why it’s so important to seek out the feedback. Don’t let yourself get trapped in a repeating pattern of sending out samples that just aren’t working for you. You have a whole lifetime to try new things, improve your skills, learn about your audience.
Are you an animator? Find a local group to compare notes with. Tattoo artist, graphic designer, writer? You have a group out there, too, you just have to find it (and put it together).
My favorite Storyboard Artist Karen J. Lloyd also talks about that most awesome of teachers, Feedback. Learn something from her!
A quick shout-out to my PDX Illustators group. You all rock the casba. Thank you for showing up and telling me what I needed to know.
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A writer recently left the following message:
"Sometimes when I'm writing I feel like someone else is in my head writing it for me. Weird when the characters take over but not uncommon apparently. This doesn't happen when blog writing by the way."
I surmise it is the muse in the form of the characters that is taking over. Somehow, this writer is able to surrender his/her ego (what some call the critic) long enough for the creative force to work through him/her when writing fiction.
I find it interesting that blog writing isn't the same. I wonder if that's true for others???
Perhaps blog writing is so quickly accessible to public scrutiny that the ego (critic) can't let go. Does that make blogs more ego-driven???? The writing more self-conscious???
Any thoughts???
oil on illustration board, 10" x 15".
If you want to do your part for the Baroque cause, remember that the most important part of being Baroque is not to be extravagant, no it's all about rhythm. You have to ask yourself the question: do I have rhythm?
more trying to catch different breeds of house creature, this is a dog like thing
One more in the houses series, as it is, I'm trying to evolve a yarn around the houses, so you can expect more of them in the future
Finally finished with the largest piece to date, I'll stick to smaller formats for a while I guess. Have nice weekends everybody, and perhaps our friends Coca and Coco might make a comeback next week.
This is a city call andria, is from the book: "las ciudades invisibles" written by italo calvino... people is the city... their legs are the buildings jeje
hope u like it! :) thas my first post on MAD.
One more vehicle, self propelled. I'll take the weekend off!
This has nothing to do with them film, (one of my favorites) but just an excuse to fill some blank parts of the paper.
According to new theories the Dinosaurs might have died out because they failed to grasp the advantages of monumental architecture.
Somehow strolling through the Old city in Stockholm always bring out these kind of drawings in me.
Made for this weeks Illustration Friday
Starting my new work tomorrow, this will unfortunately add some more commute time, I hope I will be able to go on blogging as I have done (maybe I'll be able to draw on the train). If not the posts might come in at less frequent pace. My hopes for this week otherwise is that my parcel with drawings will reach Beck Wheeler in time for the exhibition, that starts this Wednesday, I hope the packet is not lost that would be a big blow for me, it's more or less everything I've not sold from this blog during the last year plus three moleskine sketchbooks.
Coordinates: 40 41 N 73 59 W
Approximate length of tunnel: 2,000 feet (610 meters)
Examples abound of cities built on top of cities and newspapers frequently report on accidental discoveries made by construction crews digging new foundations around the world. And while they may be more common in Europe where dense populations have concentrated for many centuries, other instances exist. Nearly 30 years ago, a young engineering student discovered a forgotten train tunnel that once ran from Brooklyn’s Cobble Hill neighborhood to the East River waterfront, connecting with a busy ferry link to Manhattan. (more…)
Break out your walking shoes NYC, it is time for the biggest (and in my opinion) best party of the year, Museum Mile. Head up to 5th avenue and 82nd street for free admission to nine museums, including the Metropolitian Museum of Art. In honor of this summer ritual we have excerpted a piece about the MET from Grove Art Online, written by Eric Myles Zafran. Get some history on this NYC landmark before you hit the jam-packed subways.
You can take her out of the city, but you can't take the city out of her.
Made while going by bus from Paris, still filled with all the crazy baroque building, bridges and churches (the churches tend to be Gothic though). We don't have that elaborate buildings in Sweden from this era, our baroque went through first a dutch filter and then through a poverty filter. Mark that the French tend not to use so much pig themes as I do.
Another moleskine sketchbook spread from the easter weekend, still some left..
I only write on my blog and it is primarily non-fiction and not all of my posts are writing as some are primarily photographs...and some are just "what I did today", but when I "write", I very often find the writing taking over and going a different direction than I thought I intended.
I never had much success with journaling - always seemed so whiny, self-centered. And although I believe that you have to be a bit narcissistic to do the "this is my life" blog - which mine is - I like my writing better since I've been blogging ...for an audience. ???
My characters are inherently lazy. They prefer to sit in the back seat and let me write my outlines, plans, ect.... and then when I'm writing, they tell me if I'm getting them wrong. Sometimes they even tell me what they would be doing, but not usually. I love plot, but I can never trust my outlines not to change on me.
It's like a chorus of little voices in my head, chanting, "Warmer, warmer... cooler, cooler, freezing, slightly warmer..."
I do think there's another character that takes over when I blog--the part of me that is a writer. I think I blog with a persona, in a way--yes, it's me, but it's the book/word part of me. As I blog, that part takes over, pushing the rest of me out of the way for a few minutes.
It's a nice place to be--often quieter and more peaceful than the rest of my day. :)
I'm so happy to hear that blogging can provide the same sort of "high" that writers get when writing longer pieces of fiction.
Quiet and peaceful, I like that Becky!!
I like that I can just write a blog entry and that's that without the endless editing and rewriting I normally do with my fiction.
This is an interesting post. I haven't pay attention to different personalities between blogging, or when writing content for websites.
Not writing for websites, but writing a long project -- memoir, novel, screenplay versus blogging...... Any difference between writing the two??? That's my query.....
I don't blog so I don't know about that. But my characters do sweep me up and take control in the novel I'm working on right now.
Hi Fairydaizy,
Haven't noticed you around these parts before. Welcome. Thanks for weighing in on the discussion.
Interesting question. . . I find that Blog writing (I write mostly fiction) is something I want to start and finish quickly. I usually invent a character or a voice that I will use for a little while and toss away when done. The thing that I am consistently probing is the relationships between people - especially ones that just don't work. I've written a few short stories and have an unpublished novel. . . in my nightstand. Writing the novel was very different from writing a blog. It was a year of unrivaled fun. The characters became so alive to me. . . (and so far just a few friends).
I think of writing blogs as getting into my Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde zone. I have the option to reveal who I am if I want to, or create another persona who gets into mind games - discovering others reactions to what I say - all in a safe zone.
Blogging is like an incubator for my fiction and sometimes blogging is like therapy for connection and acknowledgment. Does that sound right?
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