It's been nearly one full year since my last post.
Shocking, I know!
It's been a year of learning, and change, for me in so many areas. I've taken on new challenges, and I've let go of certain things that I had previously found my identity in. Unfortunately, writing was one of those identities that found itself, temporarily, on the chopping block. Not by choice, mind you. But, by necessity.
Now, before those of you, purist writers, who would come down on me for selling out to the business of life, know that I'll be the first to confess my fault. Yes, I threw up my hands in defeat and wavered in my tenacity of "writing spirit" and walked away for a season. I'm not proud of it...
But, also know that I've discovered a new sense of self. I've unearthed the authentic "me" that had been buried under the pressures and demands of vocation and day-to-day life.
It was difficult to lay it all down, the blogs, the works-in-progress, the revisions of completed manuscripts. But, I had to exchange it for "life."
Sometimes, I find that I have too much info on the brain and I just tend to shut down my creative side in order to facilitate the "business" side of my mind. I've learned that allowing that to happen may make more room for my vocational responsibilities, but in exchange, withers my imaginative soul.
I'm an all-or-nothing type of gal. And, that poses problems for me. Especially being equal-parts right and left-brain. My creative muse is smacked down by my editorial diva on a continual basis. It can be an awful stress factor. And, there are times that I live the administrative part of my life and allow the imaginative side to fall away. It's almost easier to let her go and to focus on my job, only. (My "job" can be demanding. I direct a preschool academy, I assist my hubby in children's ministry, and I'm managing the music department at our church on an interim basis.)
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OH MY GOSH! Crazy that you are back on the exact day I do a search for:
cj shoe mood!!!!!!!!!
I have missed you. I have thought of you often lately, as I have just had a hysterectomy. I wanted to read your posts on your experience. And see how you are doing.
A break is GOOD. Good for the soul.
I've scaled WAY back in the amount of blogs I read. It's been awesome. I also took a long break from writing.
HUGS! Glad you are back. Post when you want!
Stephanie
Hellooooo my sweet friend! So glad to hear from you! I will certainly check in with you, but, I want you to know that if you need anything, just let me know. Shoot me an email if you ever need to chat about the "hyster" experience. I'm here for you! I'm wishing for you a speedy recovery and the enjoyment of freedom of new found liberty! ;-) xoxo CJ
I'm so glad you're back! I've missed your shoes! But more importantly, I've missed your wisdom, compassion and lovely insights on everyday life. I love being able to see the world through your lens!
Aw, Court! You're so good to me. Thank you, friend. It's very good to be back. MUAH!!