Contemplating.That suites me today especially when I was trying to learn how to spell it. It took me 10 minutes to look it up. It is true we spell like we pronounce the words we speak. I was pronouncing it comtenplating I guess that is why I couldn't find it at first. I always ponder my thoughts before I even put any words on paper and once they are on paper, I have several rough drafts. Once I think it's worthy, I then go to the computer where I lose my mind and write everyhting but what is on the paper. At least that is what I recently did to a story that I had beeen CONTEMPLATING for 2 years now. All I had was a title and a few lines, so when I sat at the computer, those few lines (about 200 hundred words) turned into 10,000 words in 2 days. I was writing for 2 days, all day.(wow, that's alot of 2's I think I'll play that number) Sleep deprived I was. I think it's worthy, especially the title. I got to give it to myself, I can think of some pretty good titles. I must say that the story line is good too. That is why I am CONTEMPLATING on sending it to a tradtional publishing company. This will be my first time doing that so I am nervous and if I keep getting rejected, I will publish it myself because that is how much I believe in myself. I self published my first book and boy oh boy did I learn a whole lot the hard way. All I can say to self publishing is that it made me learn how to do for myself such as learning how to get an editor and NO, you won't be recognized in many writing communities and find your own book reviews. It's a lot of work, it is what it is Self Publishing. I'm glad I know what to do now( I learned a valuable lesson). Ok, getting back. I think while I am CONTEMPLATING this one story, I might contemplate on sending two more stories off as well, and while they are circulating, I can focus on another story that I have been CONTEMPLATING for 15 YEARS. yep, my little mind can actually hold on to a story for 15 years. I 'll talk about that another time. Well, enough of this contemplating. I think I am going to go ahead and start on some query letters.