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26. Lauren Myracle on Banned Books…and Scars is mentioned!

Lauren Myracle, author of SHINE, ttfn, and many more popular YA books, talks beautifully and honestly in this article about her books being banned and challenged, the horrible criticisms she’s received, the blizzard of fan mail she gets (a hundred emails a day!!), the awful mix-up with Shine and Chime with the National Book Awards…and SCARS is mentioned! The interviewer says at one point:

“Wall Street Journal writer Meghan Cox Gurdon said last year that teen literature has become too dark and depraved—too much rape, incest, violence. One of the books she cited, Scars, is about a girl who cuts herself. What’s your take?”

and Lauren Myracle says:

“I think she looked at a very small sampling of books. I think she herself was sensationalizing. For a girl who is cutting herself, to be able to read something like that and think, “I’m not alone,” what bigger gift can you give someone?”

Thank you so much, Lauren! (beaming)

I love how honest Lauren is in her interview, and how down-to-earth. Check it out.

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27. If you like SCARS…


Could you please take a moment and “like” the new SCARS ebook on Amazon? (Click on the “Like” button near the top.) Apparently that kind of thing helps get the book out there more. It takes only a moment to do. And if you’re feeling generous, if you “liked” the paperback version as well, that would be fab. These kinds of things are ways to help a book or an author that you’ve loved. I so appreciate your help!

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28. SCARS is now an ebook on Amazon!


I’m excited to announce that, after two years, SCARS is now available in ebook format on Amazon! (For the Kindle.) It’s on sale for $7.99, which is cheaper than both the hardcover and the paperback editions.

I’ve had many readers ask me over the years for ebook copies of my books, so I’m so excited that SCARS is now available for ebook readers! I often buy two copies of books I really love–a digital copy to carry around with me everywhere, and a paper copy for home and my shelves, so I think it’s cool that if people want or prefer an ebook copy, they can get one now.

Please help me spread the word about SCARS now being available as an ebook.

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29. My radio interview with Dr Beth is live!

My radio interview with Dr. Beth is up! I hope you’ll check it out. I talk about SCARS, self-harm and why I used it to cope, sexual abuse, and ritual abuse, and a tiny bit about HUNTED. If you pull the cursor to about 29 minutes in, you’ll get my interview with Dr. Beth.

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30. Book Lover Holiday Giveaway Hop AND Celebration of HUNTED coming out

I’m so excited–HUNTED (my teen Paranormal Fantasy/Dystopian) is coming out soon–on Dec 19th! And to celebrate that, I’m taking part in this holiday giveaway hop. (If you love contests, keep an eye on my blog around Dec 19th, when I’ll be hosting an *even bigger contest.*)

This contest, I’m giving away:

*15 signed short story postcards with a story that ties into HUNTED on one side, and SCARS on the other (who knows, these might become collector’s items someday)

*4 signed copies of HUNTED (these will ship when I get them, so after Dec 19th)

*3 signed copies of SCARS

*2 $5 Amazon gift cards

And **everyone can download my free short story ebook PinPoint (tie-in to HUNTED).** Go to SmashWords if you need it for Kindle, B&N if you need it for Nook, Reader Store if you need it for Sony, or the SmashWords link for all those formats and more.

You can also download all the free HUNTED goodies I’ve created, including the short story ebook, the postcard short story, the comic strip, the “newspaper article”, the teacher’s guide, and more.

Open to US & Canada, runs Dec 2-6th.

To enter this contest, you can have 4 total entries:

*1 entry by leaving a comment on this post
*1 entry for watching my book trailer for HUNTED (please be honest; I want to help get the word out about HUNTED)
*1 entry for tweeting or blogging about this contest or my book trailer
*1 entry for tweeting or blogging about HUNTED, my book trailer http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=uEvx0jdTdOw, or any of the HUNTED Goodies

HUNTED book trailer (1 entry to watch, up to 2 extra entries to tweet or post about it):

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31. I made book ornaments for my own books

So, last night after the great #engchat on Twitter (thank you to everyone who participated and asked me questions!) I was talking about how I’m trying to make Christmas a nicer time for myself–by incorporating some book and writing ornaments for my tree. I’ve got a Paddington Bear ornament (I love Paddington!), a Grinch, a Green Eggs and Ham, and a pile of mini books with a mug and a plate of cookies ornament.

And then @gripemaster asked if anyone makes book ornaments with our favorite books on them. I couldn’t find anyone (though I did find some neat handmade book ornaments on Etsy), but it got me thinking. I still thrill in the fact that I’m published and that my books are reaching people. It’s my dream! And so I thought…wouldn’t it be cool if I had a mini book ornament for some of my own books? A kind of celebration of my accomplishments–especially since I can’t always hold on to positives.

So I set about creating my own book ornaments today for SCARS and HUNTED. And after some trial and error, here’s what I came up with:

I put the title of the books and my author name along the spine.

They’re not perfect, but I think they’re cute, and they work for me. Since I made them just for myself, and I’m not selling them, and I wrote the books, I think it’s likely okay that I made them. :)



Do you want to create book ornaments for your own books? Or for a favorite book of yours? Here’s how I did it:


Materials needed:
-post-it notes, 1 3/8″ x 1 7/8″
-glue stick
-digital image of cover
-scissors or paper cutter or both
-silver or decorative thread
-freeware program Ifranview and plugins (if using Windows)
-color printer

First, I got out my pads of sticky notes (of which I have a lot) and chose the right size for me: 1 3/8″ x 1 7/8″

Next, I had to resize my cover images so that they would print properly–along with finding a program that would print my images the exact size that I resized them (Windows doesn’t allow you to do that). After researching it, I downloaded the free IfranView and the plugins, and everything went smoothly.
Program downloaded: IfranView and plugins
Cover image resized to: 1.5″ x 2″ with 400 dpi with a 1 margin along the left and the top.
Printed copies: 3

Next, I cut out the printed images (I used my paper cutter, then scissors to do final trimming).

I put glue on the backs of the covers using a glue stick so that it wouldn’t dimple or wrinkle, and then applied 1 cover image to the front of the post-it note pad, and 1 cover to the back. I then cut out a strip from the third cover, then the title of my book and my name, and applied them along the spine (the strip went behind so that the yellow of the pad didn’t show up along the spine).

I did not put anything along the top, bottom, or right-hand side of the post-it pad, so that it would be like a bo

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32. My personal highlights from ALAN (and being on a panel)

So…after two months of worrying about me being on a panel speaking about challenged books in front of 500 people, and then two weeks of anxiety, and then a day of absolute fear right up to (and during) the panel…I “did good”! I knew I had a lot to say–Scars has been challenged at least once formally that I know of, and informally in Meghan cox Gurden’s op-ed. My abusers tried to silence me most of my life; I don’t want to be silenced any more. But actually speaking about it all in front of 500 people live felt pretty scary. I think I spoke well, though–honestly, emotionally, passionately, and intelligently. I still can’t believe I spoke well! It took a while for me to know it–but I started taking it in afterward from the many responses and from people telling me that in so many ways.

I know public speaking is hard for many people, at least at first. It is for me, too. But for me there’s also the added layers of all the abuse training–my abusers repeatedly telling me they’d kill me if I talked (and since they’d murdered other children in front of me I knew they could), and abuse that happened on raised stages (like child porn), and all the years I learned to be silent, quiet, and not speak out, except through my writing and my art. But yesterday I learned that I CAN speak publicly, even to a large group, and it can be okay and even a good experience.

Me speaking, photo taken by Sandi Walden

Some of the time before my panel I felt alone and scared and insecure as the hours stretched on, so I took a breather, and sat in the hallway against the wall. But doing that I felt like I was socially awkward and sticking out, the way I had as a teen. And then who should come by but A.S. King (Everybody Sees the Ants, Please Ignore Vera Dietz)! She sat herself down beside me so easily, and we sat, backs against the wall, talking. Amy was reassuring and understanding, and so down-to-earth. I loved hearing about her own experiences, and just…spending time. Hearing Amy talk about ALAN so enthusiastically made me want to join.

I also got to meet C.J. Bott in person–she recognized me as I passed by, and we talked briefly, and then she sat down for a bit with A.S. King and me. C. J. Bott did a lovely review of Scars, and we’d talked back and forth via email a bit, so it was cool to meet her in person. She’ll be vice president of ALAN next year!

I also talked a bit with Professor Melanie Hundley, who was an incredibly friendly, bright spot in the day, introducing me to other authors and to teachers, pointing out my handouts to others, and just being lovely.

It helped to have such friendly, caring people around!

The whole experience was also made better by my wonderful book publicist Julie Schoerke, picking me up at the airport, taking me to dinner, and then coming the next day to be with me for my panel. I was getting more and more scared the closer it got to my panel, and thankfully Julie arrived about an hour before. She sat on the floor with me i

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33. Grab a short short SCARS bonus Postcard story for free

Love SCARS? Download a short story SCARS Postcard story!

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34. My banned book video mentioned in Shelf Awareness!

Oh my GOSH!! My video on reading banned books was mentioned today in Shelf Awareness! What a thrill! I can’t stop smiling! (beaming)

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35. Scars in Canadian Children’s Book News

I just found out today that SCARS is in Canadian Children’s Book News magazine in a special section on books dealing with mental health issues! Yayyy! I’m so glad that SCARS is getting some Canadian press. (beaming)

And (ahem) when I went to Amazon to get the link for SCARS just now, I saw that it was #8 in books on sexual abuse for teens…which felt good to see. (smiling)

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36. Interview with me on Scars being challenged, & enter to win a paperback copy of Scars

If you’re interested, you can read an interview with me about SCARS being challenged, & me being a survivor, as part of the SCARS paperback blog tour. You can also enter to win a paperback copy of SCARS (scroll down to the bottom of the interview to enter).

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37. Scariest moments on road of publication

What have my scariest moments as an author been on the road of publication? And what about the most rewarding? Check out my guest post (for the SCARS paperback blog tour) for the answers.

Can you relate? What are your scariest moments on the road of or to publication?

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38. What mediums does Kendra (from SCARS) like to use?

Today on the SCARS book blog tour, you can check out the Top 10 Mediums that Kendra from SCARS (and I) like to use to create art.

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39. Scars blog tour to celebrate the paperback edition, Aug 8-Sept 3

Scars is out in paperback, and to celebrate, I’m having a Scars blog tour run by Kari at Teen Book Scene (thank you, Kari!). I hope you’ll check out some of the stops.

The tour runs from August 8 – September 3



Monday, August 8: Nicci at Paper Dreams (Author
This or That List)
Tuesday, August 9: Val at Truth Be Told (Tens
List)
Wednesday, August 10: Jessica T at Hopelessly Devoted
Bibliophile
(Guest Post)
Thursday, August 11: Jessi E at The Elliott Review (Author Interview)
Friday, August 12: Sara H at Eve’s Fan Garden
(Review)
Saturday, August 13: Ecey at Ece Red (Tens List)
Sunday, August 14: Ivy at Ivy Reads (Review)




Monday, August 15: Kayla at Caught Between
the Pages
(Character This or That List: Meghan)
Tuesday, August 16: Zoe S at Zoe’s Book Reviews (Tens List)
Wednesday, August 17: Patricia at Patricia’s
Peculiarity
(Guest Post)
Thursday, August 18: Myranda at My{Reads}Da
(Author Interview)
Friday, August 19: Christine at Whatch YA Reading
(Review)
Saturday, August 20: Danna at Friendly Reader (Tens List)
Sunday, August 21:

Amber S at Me, My Shelf and I (Review)



Monday, August 22: Ash at Smash Attack Reads
(Author This or That List)
Tuesday, August 23: Ivy at Ivy Reads (Tens List)
Wednesday, August 24: Alisia at Alisia Leavitt (Guest
Post)
Thursday, August 25: Christine at Whatch YA Reading (Author Interview)
Friday, August 26: Ecey at Ece Red (Review)
Saturday, August 27: Lili at Chica Reader (Tens
List)
Sunday, August 28: Kayla at Caught
Between the Pages
(Review)



Monday, August 29: Heather at Proud Book Nerd (Character
This or That List: Kendra)
Tuesday, August 30: Amber S at 0 Comments on Scars blog tour to celebrate the paperback edition, Aug 8-Sept 3 as of 1/1/1900

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40. Guest Post by YA author Joe Lunievicz: Call Me Ishmael

Today YA author Joe Lunievicz is guest blogging here. I enjoyed reading his post; I hope you do, too! I think openings in books are just as important as Joe does. Take it away, Joe!


Call Me Ishmael

Don’t get me wrong – I love book covers. When I’m browsing in bookstores book covers are the first thing that either attracts me or pushes me away from a book. But after the cover it’s all about the opening line.

I know, as a writer, that I have to grab the reader right away. This has been brought home to me over and over again in writing classes and workshops, but it never really hit me until I read Scar Lover by Harry Crews. The first line is, Pete Butcher had not meant to speak to her. The next two paragraphs begin like this: He felt a little chill on the back of his neck, and with the chill came the thought that she wanted to tell him something. And, People were forever telling him something he did not want to hear. Something bad. And we’re off and running. I had to read this book because of the first line and what followed in the first three paragraphs. But the first line has to hook.

So I spend time on my first line.

I spend a lot of time on it and I think most writers do too. Andrew Smith, author of Ghost Medicine, In the Path of Falling Objects, and The Marbury Lens, has told me he rewrites his first lines over and over again until they are perfect.

So what should the first line do?

It needs to grab the reader, yes.

But it also needs to give a frame for all that will come. It’s a tall order, in just one line. In the case of the protagonist, Pete Butcher, in Scar Lover, the woman he meets and speaks to becomes the whole reason for the tale. It tells us about the trepidation of the protagonist, the hesitancy he has to meet new people because of the horrible things he has been told in the past, and the importance of chance in what is to come.

Look at Cheryl Rainfield’s opening line in her novel, Scars.

“Someone is following me.” I gulp air, trying to breathe.

Right from the start we are on a chase. The protagonist – Kendra – is afraid and we can tell immediately that she is also in danger. She’s talking to her therapist but the feeling of being not-believed, of being trapped begins with the gulping of air and continues in the next few sentences with, a voice that stings, hands that twist, words that are spit and lips that are dry. Everything follows from the opening line. In Cheryl’s case the tension level of the story is high from that opening line, continues with sensory details that speak to strong emotions, and promise a narrative that will not release us until the very last line of the book. Scars does just that. It grips, makes it hard to breathe, and makes us worry what will happen to a girl who is always looking over her shoulder to see who is following her.

In the case of my book, Open Wounds*, it took me four years to find the first line, even though revisions continued on other parts of the book for three more years. But when I found that line I knew that was the way I wanted readers to start the journey of Cid Wymann – the protagonist of my story.

“It begins with blood and ends with blood,” begins Cid’s tale. It’s 1936 and seven year old Cid Wymann has been looking at an advertisement in The New York Times for the movie, Captain Blood starring Errol Flynn – the Heath Ledger of his time. But Cid’s mother, we also find out within the fi

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41. Reasons Not To Hurt Yourself

Reasons Not To Hurt Yourself
by Cheryl Rainfield


  • Because you do not deserve to be hurt, not by anyone, not even yourself;

  • Because you deserve the same compassion, kindness, and love that everyone else does, and that you would give to a friend;
  • Because if you hurt yourself, you are repeating and reinforcing what your abusers or people who put you down told you, and none of that is true;
  • Because any relief you may get from hurting yourself is only fleeting and will not last, and because you will need to keep hurting yourself more frequently and worse to get that tiny bit of relief, and may end up doing permanent damage or may even inadvertently kill yourself;
  • Because you have already been through so much pain and do not need more pain added to that;
  • Because you have a voice and have a right to be heard;
  • Because you deserve to have compassion for yourself, the way others have it for you;
  • Because there are safer, gentler ways to find some relief and you deserve to find those ways;
  • Because even if you do not believe it, hurting yourself will hurt the people who truly love you;
  • Because you deserve to be treated gently and with love, not with hate;
  • Because you are not to blame for anything that happened to you as a child;
  • Because you will hurt your body and your body is not to blame for anything;
  • Because hurting yourself is abusing yourself, and you do not deserve to be abused;
  • Because it’s better and kinder to reach out to others and get support, or to find inner resources to rely on, rather than to add to your own hurt and torment;
  • Because one day you will see the beauty in yourself and know that you should be treated with care;
  • Because you are lovable and loved, and deserve to be treated with love; and
  • Because things will get better, and you will find more of what you need.
  • By Cheryl Rainfield, author of SCARS

    Drawing by Cheryl Rainfield, part of the Love Yourself affirmation cards

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    42. Signing Scars at Toronto on April 23rd 1pm Indigo Yorkdale

    I will be signing Scars, along authors Mahtab Narsimhan (The Deadly Conch) & Helene Boudreau (Real Mermaids Don’t Wear Toe Rings) in Toronto on April 23rd at 1pm at Indigo Yorkdale. If you’re in Toronto, I’d love to have you stop by.

    Check out the beautiful poster Mahtab’s publicist created to help us get the word out about the event!

    I am always happy to personalize copies of Scars (or any of my books). If you can’t get to see me, you can always request a free signed bookplate.

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    43. Like a Book? Leave a review.

    If you’re a reader, and you like Scars–or any book by any author–one way you can help us is to write a review (even just a few sentences!) on Amazon, GoodReads, LibraryThing, your blog…anywhere people might see it. It really does make a difference. It helps let others know about the book. So please, if you liked Scars, consider leaving a review. I would be grateful. And don’t be shy about letting an author know you liked a book! We love hearing from readers. :)

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    44. Scars is a finalist for SCBWI’s Cristal Kite award

    I’m so happy and excited–Scars is a finalist for the 2011 SCBWI Crystal Kite Member Choice Awards! It’s such a good feeling–to have my work honored by my peers. (beaming)

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    45. Free Bookmarks for Scars with tips on dealing with self-harm…and a way to use the bookmarks

    I offer free bookmarks for Scars with tips on how to deal with self-harm; if you want some, just email me your snail mail address. You can also access the tips at my site. (You can also request a free signed bookplate.)

    Jennifer Wharton, a youth services librarian at Matheson Memorial Library, had a fantastic idea on how to use the bookmarks. She told me that she’s going to put one bookmark into every copy of Scars that’s returned to the library. That means, when the copies get checked out again, that the library patron will have a bookmark with tips on how to deal with self-harm, right there in front of them. I love it!

    You might also consider giving a bookmark (or all three) to someone you know who’s dealing with self-harm, or who works with people who deal with self-harm.

    There are three individual bookmarks–Helpful Responses to Someone Who’s Self-Harmed; Alternatives to Self-Harm; and How To Stop Self-Harming.

    Know another way to use the bookmarks? Let me know.

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    46. Today Is National Self-Injury Awareness Day

    I’m glad the day exists, though I wonder how many people know about it. Self-harm is something that not a lot of people talk about, and when they do, there’s often shame. People often respond to self-harm with anger, blame, disgust, attempts at control…or they just don’t know what to do.

    There are a few things I think it’s really important to know:

    • Self-harm is NOT acting out, manipulation, or a failed suicide attempt; the person is usually trying to cope with great emotional distress, and trying to feel better.;

    • One of the most helpful responses to self-harm is coming from a place of compassion. It also helps to educate yourself about self-harm.

    More people are becoming aware of self-harm, and more people are responding in ways that help–but there are so many teens using self-harm that feel like they’re the only one, feel like no one understands them. I’ve received so many reader letters telling me that. So if you know someone who’s used self-harm–or even if you don’t–I hope you’ll take a minute or two to read some tips on self-harm, and perhaps be better prepared when you come across it. And for those of you who have used self-harm–I hope you know, and can take in, that you don’t deserve to be hurt–not ever, not by anyone–not even yourself! I also hope you’ll find ways to treat yourself with the same love and compassion that you would a friend. It’s hard, it takes time–but it’s worth it. You are!

    Check out my tips on self-harm:
    Helpful Responses to Someone Who’s Used Self-Harm
    How To Stop Self-Harming
    Alternatives To Self-Harm

    and my detailed article What To Do When You Feel Like Hurting Yourself

    Another *fantastic* resource on understanding self-harm is Secret Shame. It is the first site I send anyone, and one of the best-written sites with the greatest (in my opinion) understanding of self-harm, its causes and effects.

    If you’re looking for a more detailed insider view of self-harm, you might consider picking up my book Scars.

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    47. My letter to my teen self at Dear Teen Me

    I wrote a letter to my teen self at Dear Teen Me. I hope you’ll check it out.

    It also features some of the art I did as a teen, including one drawing I mentioned in Scars.

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    48. My response to the specific challenge to Scars

    As in any community, there will be differing opinions and views of what is right, what is healthy. I understand that. But to try to remove my book–which is about breaking silence, finding healing and safety–feels wrong to me, on so many levels. If you’re triggered by something, you find a way to deal with that trigger. You go into therapy, you deal with your past. You don’t silence others.

    Yesterday, Amy from Kid’s Right to Read Project and ABFFE got detailed information from Boone County Public Library about the challenge to Scars. Apparently, the patron challenged Scars on the content, saying that it could contain triggers for self-harming teens or those who used to harm themselves but no longer do.

    I find this response troubling. As most of you probably know, I used self-harm to cope with the effects of sexual and ritual abuse for many years. It is actually my scarred arm on the cover of Scars. When I cut, I did it in secrecy and shame. I hid it for years, never going to the doctor even when I needed stitches, for fear of what they would do. I was afraid not only of how they would treat me–many times people respond with anger and attempts to shame someone who uses self-harm–but also that they would try to stop me. And for many years, I needed self-harm to help me survive. I used self-harm many times as an alternative to killing myself.

    One of the things I found the hardest about self-harm was the secrecy (which reminded me of the secrecy I was forced to keep for the sexual and ritual abuse), the shame, and the feeling so alone, as if I was the only one who had such pain, the only one who coped that way. It is so hard to have emotional pain, and then to have that pain increased by feeling like you’re the only one, or like you can’t turn to other people to talk about it and receive a compassionate response.

    When my wounds had become scars and I had worked through the shame, I went around with my sleeves rolled up. I didn’t want to carry around the shame any more, and I didn’t want to have to have my past be a secret. I wanted to get people’s reactions over with. Sometimes people responded with anger, criticism, disgust, or by trying to shame me. I wanted to know how people stood with me, without having them suddenly find out and react. I also was hoping that I might someday see another person with their scars visible. The rare few times I met someone else out in the world with scarred limbs, I felt less alone. Once I gained a few survivor friends who also used self-harm, I felt that someone finally understood, and I didn’t have to explain. That was a wonderful feeling.

    Over the years, I heard some beliefs in various communities about self-harm that were not true for me. I heard social workers saying that people who used self-harm should hide their scars because it would trigger other people who used self-harm to hurt themselves. As if self-harm is simply something that we do because we see it. My self-harm came out of trauma and deep emotional pain, and the triggers of my own memories and abuse conditioning. Seeing another person’s scars never made me in turn hurt myself. It always made me feel less alone.

    But perhaps some people get triggered by seeing others’ scars. I understand triggers. There are SO many of them out there in the world for me, created by the abuse and torture I endured. But I don’t go around telling people they can’t do or say the things that trigger me. If they’re friends, I might explain my trigger, hope that they’d understand.

    I’m not talking about something like the recent visually graphic YouTube videos of people cutting themselves. I would find that painful, disturbing, and triggering to watch. But showing healed wounds that are scars feels very different to me. As does talking about it in a way that is healing.

    Scars is about finding healing and understanding, and sharing that. I share

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    49. Scars is being challenged

    Scars is being challenged at Boone County Public Library in KY. This makes me sad and angry. Preventing any teen or reader from reading a book that might help them, might speak to them, seems so wrong to me.

    When I was a teen, being horribly abused, I felt so alone and isolated. Alone in being sexually and ritually abused, alone in being queer, and alone in using self-harm to cope with horrendous abuse. Feeling like you’re the only one of any traumatic, hurtful, or shameful experience is painful. When you add social shaming on top of that, for all of those issues, it can feel unbearable. I desperately needed to know I wasn’t alone, and as an avid reader, I searched for reflections of my own experience in books. I never found it, not the way I needed–but I did find bits of experience that I could identify with, even though they weren’t my own, in books like Judy Blume’s Blubber (I identified with being bullied as a teen, since I was), Lois Duncan’s Down A Dark Hall (I knew what it was like to have the adults around me show one social face, while doing horrible things in secret), Anne of Green Gables (being initially unloved) and many more. Those books are part of what helped me survive my abusive childhood and teenhood. But I still, always, searched for a book that would be more true to my experiences. I never found it–and that is a big part of why I wrote Scars. It was a book I needed for myself.

    It turns out that it was a book that many other teens needed, as well. I get a number of reader letters every week, and in so many of them, I hear from teens who have been in emotional pain and felt utterly alone in the world and not understood by anyone until they read Scars. Many of those teens also tell me that after reading Scars, they have managed to stop using self-harm, or reduce self-harm, and many of them have been able, for the first time, to talk to others about their pain, or go into therapy. Those letters are such a gift–knowing that Scars is actively bringing positive change into so many lives. Many of the teens experienced abuse, but some did not. Some were simply queer, or in emotional distress, and didn’t have another outlet.

    Since self-harm is usually kept a secret–there is so much societal shame and blame around it–many people who self-harm go years without getting help. I believe that talking about the painful issues is one way to encourage people to find someone to talk to, and to get help.

    I’ve also heard from many readers who have never been abused and never experienced self-harm themselves. Some of them have known friends who’ve used self-harm, and after reading Scars, they understand a bit better, have more compassion, and feel more equipped to help their friends. Many other teens have not known anyone who used self-harm, but write to me saying that they have more compassion for people in pain, in general. And a few people have told me that before they read Scars, they could not understand how anyone could ever hurt themselves, but after reading Scars, they got it. I have been hearing, over and over, how much Scars is helping others; it is what I hoped for, and more. To remove Scars from the bookshelves means preventing a lot of teens from finding understanding, safety, and encouragement to find help. It means preventing others from having a bit more compassion for their fellow students. Scars is a book I desperately needed as a teen–and it is clear to me that many, many teens also need it. Keeping it from teens is a reinforcement that no, you’re not okay as you are. That you should feel shame for being abused, being queer, or coping in a way that hurts yourself. For being different. Removing Scars, is, to me, removing some compassion, insight, and understanding from the world.

    I hope you’ll join me in raising your voice against censorship.

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    50. Incredible compliment for a writer

    I am so honored, excited, and thrilled! A reader created fan art for Scars! And it’s beautifully done, too, depicting a scene early in the book. Just…wow. (beaming) That is such an incredible compliment for a writer to receive. As are all the wonderful, wonderful reader letters I receive! I love hearing that Scars has moved people.

    Have you ever drawn fan art for a book? Ever sent a letter to a writer? If you have a favorite book, you might want to consider doing so. Authors love to hear from our readers!

    PS If you click on the small image, you can see it much larger, in more detail.

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