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1. The impact of suicide: World Suicide Prevention Day and why suicide awareness matters

Each year over one million people worldwide die by suicide. In the United States, approximately 42,000 people die by suicide each year, with a suicide occurring every 12.3 minutes. It is the 10th leading cause of death overall, and the 2nd leading cause of death for youth under the age of 24. For World Suicide Prevention Day, we’d like to tell you why this matters to us and why it should matter to you.

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2. सोशल साईटस बनाम अनसोशल ऐक्टिविटीज

सोशल साईटस बनाम अनसोशल ऐक्टिविटीज Sociale sites / unsocial activities सोशल नेट वर्किंग पर हम कितने सोशल … छेडखानी, पीछा करना, अश्लीलता, तंग करना, अपशब्द  बोलना ,अस्वच्छता , गंदगी सिर्फ असल जिंदगी मे ही नही सोशल मीडिया पर भी होता है और जिसकी वजह से सोशल अनसोशल बन जाता है. एक सहेली का birth day था सोचा […]

The post सोशल साईटस बनाम अनसोशल ऐक्टिविटीज appeared first on Monica Gupta.

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3. महिलाएं – रेप और सरकार की उदासीनता

महिलाएं – रेप और सरकार की उदासीनता चाहे हमारी कानून व्यवस्था  हो, पुलिस प्रशासन हो  या सरकार का रवैया , हालात बद से बदतर होते जा रहे है हमारे देश भारत के … बोलने की बात पर कोई बोलता नही है और फालतू के मुद्दो पर बहस किए जा रहे हैं. बेहद शर्मनाक !! यूपी […]

The post महिलाएं – रेप और सरकार की उदासीनता appeared first on Monica Gupta.

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4. Suicide and the First Amendment

What does suicide have to do with the first amendment right to free speech? As it turns out, the question comes up in many contexts: Can a state university student be disciplined for sending a text threatening suicide to another student? Can a young woman be criminally prosecuted for repeatedly texting her boyfriend to insist that he fulfill his intention to commit suicide?

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5. एक कडवा सच- रंगीन दुनिया का बदरंग चेहरा

एक कडवा सच- रंगीन दुनिया का बदरंग चेहरा खुद पर लक्ष्मण रेखा जरुरी है.. कुछ समय पहले  आनन्दी बनाम प्रत्यूषा की आत्महत्या ने सकते में डाल दिया पर जैसे जैसे इस बारे में और खबरें आती गई हैरानी बढती चली गई…!! मन अनेक सवालों से घिरता चला गया…!! चाहे फिल्मी दुनिया हो या धारावाहिक की […]

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6. एक कडवा सच- रंगीन दुनिया का बदरंग चेहरा

एक कडवा सच- रंगीन दुनिया का बदरंग चेहरा खुद पर लक्ष्मण रेखा जरुरी है.. कुछ समय पहले  आनन्दी बनाम प्रत्यूषा की आत्महत्या ने सकते में डाल दिया पर जैसे जैसे इस बारे में और खबरें आती गई हैरानी बढती चली गई…!! मन अनेक सवालों से घिरता चला गया…!! (तस्वीर गूगल से साभार) चाहे फिल्मी दुनिया […]

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7. Suicide in Nazi Germany in 1945

When the US Army took the Saxon city of Leipzig in April 1945, a gruelling scene was revealed inside the town hall. The Nazi treasurer of the city, his wife, and his daughter had all committed suicide. But these suicides were not isolated cases. In the spring of 1945, Nazi Germany went to its end in an unprecedented wave of suicides.

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8. Step 1 to end military suicide

Fifteen years ago, the suicide rate among patients in a large behavioral care system in Detroit was seven times the national average. Then leaders there decided to tackle the problem. The first question asked was what should be the goal—to cut the rate in half, reduce it to the national level, or more? One employee said even a single suicide was unacceptable if it was your loved one, and that helped set the target: zero.

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9. Cartoon- Kissan suicide

cartoon-kissan suicide -monica gupta

फसल बर्बाद होने की वजह से किसान आत्महत्या कर रहे  हैं. उत्तर प्रदेश में पिछले कुछ महीनों में 100 से भी ज्यादा किसान खुदकुशी कर चुके हैं जबकि महाराष्ट्र, पंजाब, आंध्र प्रदेश और देश के दूसरे हिस्सों से भी किसानों की आत्महत्या की खबरें लगातार मिल रही हैं।

मीडिया में किसानों की आत्महत्याओं की बातें आ रही हैं, लेकिन मीडिया को इस मुद्दे को लेकर जितना गंभीर होना चाहिए, वह शायद नहीं है। राजनेताओं की लड़ाई में किसान का जो असली मुद्दा है, वह छुप जाता है।  टीवी चैनलों पर बहस में  किसान नहीं, राजनेता नज़र आते हैं।

राजनेता भी किसानों को लेकर बस अपने तरीके से ‘गंभीर’ नज़र आ रहे हैं। कोई रैली के जरिये किसानों का मुद्दा उठाने की कोशिश कर रहा है, तो कोई मुआवजे की बात कर रहा है। प्रधानमंत्री जी  ‘मन की बात’ से लेकर राजनीति के मंच तक किसान की बात कर रहे हैं। प्रधानमंत्री ने किसानों के लिए मुआवज़ा भी बढ़ा दिया है, जो अच्छी बात है। लेकिन सवाल यह उठता है कि क्या यह मुआवजा किसानों तक पहुंच पाता है। अगर पहुंचता है, तो कितना ???  पिछले ही दिनों ऐसी खबरें आईं कि उत्तर प्रदेश के कुछ इलाक़ों में किसानों को मुआवजे के रूप में 50 से लेकर 200 रुपये तक के चेक दिए जा रहे हैं। सोचने की बात है कि ये मुआवजा है या किसानों के साथ मजाक। अगर ऐसा ही हाल रहा, तो चाहे कितना भी मुआवज़ा बढ़ा दिया जाए, किसानों का हाल कभी सुधरने वाला नहीं है.. और भविष्य मे कुछ ऐसी खबर भी देखने सुनने को मिल सकती है .

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10. Nest, by Esther Ehrlich | Book Review

Esther Ehrlich’s debut novel, Nest, is an arresting story of an eleven-year-old girl named Chirp Orenstein, whose life becomes acutely sharp and complicated as her mother’s illness overtakes the family

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11. Review: Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng

This is an incredible exploration of grief, family and identity and the pressures of expectations that come from each. The book opens with a death, one that nobody else knows about yet, the death of Lydia Lee; middle child of Marilyn and James and sister to older brother Nathan and younger sister Hannah. Lydia’s death […]

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12. If you or your teen or someone you know is thinking of suicide–talk it out.

If you or your teen or someone you know is thinking about suicide–get help. Talk to someone (or many someone’s). Make sure you (or your teen) have people to talk to. It helps to talk it out.

Check out this fantastic video on what to say and what not to say to a teen (or anyone) thinking of suicide. It helps to talk it out.

Also see my post on Reasons Not To Kill Yourself.

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13. Apparition, by Gail Gallant | Book Review

This YA paranormal mystery/romance is a page-turner all the way. Told in the present tense, the action always feels immediate. The author captures Amelia’s grief over her mother, self-doubt over her paranormal abilities, and conflicting pulls of love for both the dead Matthew and the living Kip.

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14. Underneath: Sarah Jamila Stevenson

Book: Underneath
Author: Sarah Jamila Stevenson (@aquafortis)
Pages: 336
Age Range: 12 and up

Whether or not I should review books by authors I know on one level or another is something that I struggle with. In the case of Sarah Jamila Stevenson's Underneath, I'm going to come down on the side of saying that I know Sarah too well to really review this one. I did review her previous novel, The Latte Rebellion, but that was a couple of years ago. Since then we've been working together on the Cybils, as well as a couple of other projects. She designed my blog's logo (isn't it beautiful?), and she's been to my house. We're friends, in blog and real terms. So I think this one takes lack of objectivity a bit too far. 

But I do want to just tell you about Sarah's new book, and suggest that if the topic piques your interest, you give it a look. Because I liked it! Underneath is paranormal young adult fiction, but just barely. It's set in the real world and features a teenage girl who develops the ability to occasionally read other people's minds, under very specialized circumstances. She calls it "underhearing". 

Sunshine “Sunny” Pryce-Shah is, like Sarah herself, the product of an ethnically mixed family. This flavors the book, certainly, but is not what Underneath is about. This makes Underneath perfect for people who are looking for books featuring diverse characters, but don't want to read boring books that are about being diverse (see this post by Sarah's blog partner, Tanita Davis for a much more eloquent and detailed take on this topic).

Underneath isn't even really about Sunny's ability to "underhear", when you get right down to it. It's more about the impact on Sunny and her family of her cousin Shiri's suicide, and about Sunny learning to stand on her own two feet in the absence of the cousin who was like an older sister to her. The underhearing is something else that Sunny has to come to terms with, sure, and a plot device that gives her certain information. But Underneath still feels more like realistic young adult fiction than fantasy. There's a fair bit about high school friendship dynamics, and there's a smidgen of romance. But when I think back on the book, I think more about Sunny and her family. 

I'll leave you with a couple of quotes:

"Little did I know how much she really would change. Little did I know that my anger then would be nothing compared to now. When she choked down all that pain medication and drove off into the mountains, did she even think about what would happen to the rest of us? Is she somewhere out there looking down at us regretting what she did, or worse, relieved she's not her? My teeth ache, I'm clenching them so hard." (Chapter Two)

"Hearing thoughts. Whenever I think about it, I get a nervous, gut-churning feeling inside. It's like a sci-fi movie. Except I'm no heroine, and I don't feel powerful. I'm just me, scared and alone. And angry." (Chapter Five)

So, if you like the idea of an emotionally hard-hitting novel about family and teen suicide, mixed with an intriguing supernatural ability, and featuring diverse characters, then Underneath is your book. I hope that you'll check it out, and I hope that you like it. I did. 

Publisher:  Flux Books (@FluxBooks)
Publication Date: June 8, 2013
Source of Book: Bought it on Kindle

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15. Review: Forget Me Not by Carolee Dean

Forget Me Not
by Carolee Dean

Published by: Simon Pulse
Released on: October 2, 2012
Hardcover
374 Pages
Rating:4/5










    Forget Me Not is deep, twisting around life, hidden secrets of reality, and the truth.  We meet Ally who isn't quite what you would suspect. Yes, she is an average girl, but when she meets the others in the hallway at school that is off limits, she finds herself learning more and more, all the while ending up more confused with the riddles and games the others around her like to play.

   It's Elijah that might be able to make a real difference in Ally's life. He's been in that hallway and has escaped it and the evil that resides there. He knows first hand what Ally is about to give her life to. He knows that she's about to make the biggest mistake ever. Elijah is her only hope of survival, but she has to want it.

If you love novels that are written in verse, this one's for you.


Received for review purposes from the publisher.



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16. Review: 34 Pieces of You by Carmen Rodrigues

 

Title: 34 pieces of You

Author:  Carmen Rodrigues

Publisher:  Simon Pulse

May Contain Spoilers

From Amazon:

A dark and moving novel—reminiscent of Thirteen Reasons Why—about the mystery surrounding a teenage girl’s fatal overdose.

There was something about Ellie…Something dangerous. Charismatic. Broken. Jake looked out for her. Sarah followed her lead. And Jess kept her distance—and kept watch.

     Now Ellie’s dead, and Jake, Sarah, and Jess are left to pick up the pieces. All they have are thirty-four clues she left behind. Thirty-four strips of paper hidden in a box beneath her bed. Thirty-four secrets of a brief and painful life.

     Jake, Sarah, and Jess all feel responsible for what happened to Ellie, and all three have secrets of their own. As they confront the past, they will discover not only the darkest truths about themselves, but also what Ellie herself had been hiding all along….

Review:

If I hadn’t received a review copy of 34 Pieces of You from the publisher, I never would have read this book, and that would have been a shame, because it is a moving and compelling read.  The subject matter didn’t appeal to me prior to receiving the ARC, and the thought of reading about a girl who overdoses, leaving her friends to grapple with their confusion and hurt, just seemed too depressing for me.  Which makes me wonder why I did pick it up, the same day it arrived in the mailbox.  Why did I start reading this, and why couldn’t I put it down?  What I found between the covers kept me turning the pages; there are so many flawed characters packed into this story, and there were so many opportunities for things to happen differently, but they didn’t.  Everyone is so caught up in themselves, that they all ignored the signals that Ellie was so clearly broadcasting.  Then again, in retrospect, everything is crystal clear, isn’t it?

I don’t want to give away any of the plot twists, so instead, let’s talk about the damaged protagonists in 34 Pieces of You.  It seems that everyone in this book is crying out for help or attention, and even when they get it, they stubbornly dig in their heels and refuse to accept it.  Ellie is so emotionally ravaged, unable to trust anyone, after she is the victim of abuse when she is a young girl. Her mother deals with this betrayal with alcohol.  Emotionally distant from her children, her coping method turns out to be one of avoidance.  Just don’t talk about it, and everything bad will go away.  Just ignore the bad things, and everything will be fine.  Ugh.  I found myself so angry and irritated with her mother.    By pretending not to see how self-destructive Ellie’s behavior was, she added to Ellie’s feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness. Even her own mother didn’t care enough to acknowledge that things weren’t right with her family.  It’s the realization that if only someone had done something, paid the slightest bit of attention to Ellie’s behavior, that makes this story, and the cascading repercussions, so tragic.  Ellie may have ultimately found some peace, but her friends and family were left reeling in the wake of her death, and ouch, not one of them emerged unscathed or unchanged.

Jake, Ellie’s older brother, is left with the most guilt, I think.  After b

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17. If you’re thinking of suicide…

Please talk to someone. Call a crisis line. Call someone who loves you. Get support. And consider this:

Please Do Not To Kill Yourself:

  • Because you deserve to live, and to find happiness and joy and love and laughter. It may not seem like you can find those things right now, but they will come. You have had them once, and they will come again;

  • Because things will get better, and when they do, you will want to be here to enjoy them;
  • Because if you kill yourself it will deeply hurt the people who love you and care about you;
  • Because there will never be another person like you, bringing your unique perspective into the world. It’s only by staying alive that you can have a voice, and help to make things better in the world–for you, and for others;
  • Because if you kill yourself, you will let all the people who hurt you so horribly win. And they should not win. We need good people in this world;
  • Because your pain will pass, and get lighter, and you will find beauty again in the things around you, and love, and laughter;
  • Because you matter. Even if you think you don’t, you do. You touch other people. Your life has an impact. People care about you;
  • Because if you kill yourself, you can never undo that act. It is final and forever. You can never again see love and compassion in the eyes of the people who love you, feel the touch of someone’s hand on yours, hug your dog or cat, listen to the rain on a roof, taste ice cream melting on your tongue. You can never have a chance to be happy again;
  • Because death is not relief or release; it is an end. You don’t feel anything after you die. But you can feel relief and release if you stay alive, and find a way to release your pain safely. Find a way to take in the love of the people who care about you;
  • Because even the deepest pain can lessen. Talk to someone you love. Write out your pain. Cry it out. Scream into a pillow. Break something. Do what you need to to get out your pain safely;
  • Because you are not alone. There are so many people who have felt the way you feel, experienced the things you have experienced. Reach out. Talk to others. You are not alone;
  • Because the desire to kill yourself will pass, if you can just wait it out long enough. Distract yourself. Call a friend. Call a crisis line. Do something you enjoy, even if you think you won’t enjoy it;
  • Because if you stick around, you will find one day that you are glad you did. You will find more good people who care about you. You will find your voice. You will do things that you love and that make you happy;
  • Because I have been there, too. I know how bad it is. And I know it can get better. It did for me. It will for you. And I hope for good things for you. Please choose to live.


  • Please reach out to someone if you’re feeling suicidal. Don’t stay silent. Choose life and hope.




    Crisis Lines:

    US and Canada: National Suicide Prevention LifeLine
    24 Hour Crisis Hotline 1 (800) 273-TALK
    1 (800) 273-8255

    International: Befrienders



    Please also read this:

    Reasons Not To Kill Yourself

    and this:

    If You Are Thinking About Suicide, Please Read This First

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    18. "Suicide" by Edouard Levé [25 Days of the BTBA]

    As with years past, we’re going to spend the next four weeks highlighting the rest of the 25 titles on the BTBA fiction longlist. We’ll have a variety of guests writing these posts, all of which are centered around the question of “Why This Book Should Win.” Hopefully these are funny, accidental, entertaining, and informative posts that prompt you to read at least a few of these excellent works.

    Click here for all past and future posts in this series.

    Suicide by Edouard Levé, translated by Jan Steyn

    Language: French
    Country: France
    Publisher: Dalkey Archive Press

    Why This Book Should Win: The crazy intense backstory. The fact that Dalkey—one of the leading publishers of literature in translation—has yet to win a BTBA award.

    Today’s post is written by Tom McCartan, who writes, works, and, lives in Ann Arbor, Michigan. He recently edited the collection Kurt Vonnegut: The Last Interview and Other Conversations for Melville House Publishing. His fiction has been published in Unsaid, the upcoming issue of which contains both Tom McCartan and Edouard Leve.

    Despite my best efforts, it has proven somewhat impossible to discuss Edouard Levé’s Suicide without discussing Eduard Levé’s suicide. Let’s get it out of the way. Levé delivered Suicide to his editor ten days before taking his own life. This fact, as macabre as it is, is the house in which the novel lives and every review or blurb about Suicide from now to eternity will mention it. This is kind of a shame because Levé’s prose is good enough on its own. However, those inclined towards the postmodern are probably salivating over the idea, for it would be hard for a book to be more self-aware than Suicide. Some have even suggested that Suicide was Levé’s suicide note. I really hope that wasn’t the case, it would ruin the delicacy. Regardless, we’ll never know.

    The novel does not have a plot, but rather its narrator (who could or could not be Levé) addresses a friend (wait, maybe the friend is Levé) who committed suicide twenty years ago. The result is homage in pointillist prose to a troubled soul explored in minute detail. It is a glimpse into the psychology of suicide. The narrator recounts the instances of his friend’s life in which he felt disassociated and addresses them back to his friend as if to absolve him of his suicide, although the narrator never claims to understand his friend’s pathos fully. We are only given the images and are left to wonder at reasons.

    Suicide reads like a photo album. This is no surprise, considering that Levé was as much an accomplished photographer as he was anything else. The prose is clipped, almost terse; while each line can be seen to represent a single idea in just the same way a photo in an album represents one moment in time. These ideas, like collections of photos in an album, create events and distinct sections in a book where there are no chapters. Praise must be given to translator Jan Steyn who deftly maintained the integrity of each line/photograph while keeping the entire piece cohesive.

    Suicide is at times beautiful, immensely sad at others, and in more moments than one might want to admit there is the potential in the text to be deeply relatable. I will not sit here and say, however, that Levé uses suicide as some sort of literary device for to teach us truth and/or bea

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    19. Review: Saving June by Hannah Harrington

    Release Date: November 22, 2011
    Series: Standalone
    Publisher: Harlequin
    Preorder: Amazon | Barnes & Noble

    June was always the golden girl, with the perfect grades, perfect friends, perfect boyfriend, perfect life. Or so it seemed. Harper has always lived in her perfect sister's looming shadow -- until, suddenly, she wasn't there. When Harper finds June's lifeless body and the empty bottle of pills, all the truths she thought she knew come crashing down around her. With nothing left to lose, she sets out in search of answers, travelling cross country with June's ashes to fulfill her sister's lifelong wish -- to see California. But Harper may not like the answers that she finds. June wasn't the only one with demons, and the secrets of Harper's unlikely companions, her best friend Laney and an evasive boy with a mysterious connection to June, threaten to tear her world apart.

    Saving June by Hannah Harrington is a bittersweet but surprisingly hopeful look at loss and living. Perhaps more accurately titled "Saving Harper," readers are shown Harper's growth into her own life, forced into the spotlight by the loss of her sister's overwhelming glow. Harper is dark, edgy and cynical, a facade built to be her sister's opposite in every way, but which has grown into a second skin. Her snark is surprisingly endearing, especially after seeing the neglect of her parents and holier-than-thou criticism from her aunt that torment her at home. It's clear that Harper's brashness and rashness are a defensive mechanism, and it's easy to see the pain she tries to hide. Though she and June had the same quibbles that plague most sibling rivalries, they were still sisters and shared a bond that even their parents couldn't completely understand -- and that loss echoes to the very last page.

    The road trip to California is a fun and effective, if a little unbelievable (a teenage girl taking off across the country with a guy she doesn't know -- and her parents are only mildly concerned?) method of showing Harper's lesson in living. The places they visit range from the bizarre to the beautiful, the wild to the wistful, and Harper grows as a person with each leg of their journey. Readers will find themselves itching to hit the road with each new adventure, whether it be camping at Fridgehenge and swing dancing in an underground Jazz club or throwing punches in a bar brawl before befriending an indie band. Saving June is vicarious living at its finest.

    Giving voice to the things the characters themselves can't quite express, Jake's expansive music collection sets the ever-changing tone of the novel. The music takes meaning from each experience and ties together the vast and various episodes of their journey. Jake is the perfect counterpart to Harper. He's just as damaged and abrasive, and their cons

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    20. If your friend did this, what would you do?

    Today’s post is from a new friend of mine. Her heart shows in this post. Check it out…

    Yavonne sits on her bed with her back pressed against the headboard and a pillow clutched to her chest. Her parents’ brutal words slice through her paper thin walls, filling their house with hatred.  She grabs her Ipod sitting on her bedside table and slams the earplugs into her ears, cranking the volume until her brain vibrates. Tears lodge in her throat, but she swallows them down.

    A razor blade tucked inside her nightstand drawer beckons her. The scars forever etched in her arm pale compared to the deep wounds encasing her heart. One of these days, she’ll cut deep enough to end it all.

    Would anyone care? Would anyone even notice? The words spoken by a neighbor a few months back flood her mind, playing tug-of-war with her heart.

    “God loves you. He’ll never leave you nor forsake you. He sees you.”

    She snorts and yanks up her sleeve, exposing ugly pink scars. Yeah, he sees her all right. All of her. Why would he care about her or her family?

    “God loves you. He’ll never leave you nor forsake you. He sees you.”

    What a laugh. If that’s true, then where is he now?

    Yavonne holds her breath, her heart quickening, as she waited for a response.

    The steel guitar grates against her ear drum.

    Yeah, that’s what she thought. What does it matter, anyway? You live and die, then turn to worm food.

    So why not speed the process along a big? Shorten the dash on the headboard?

    ***

    Rachel sifts through her container of beads, laying the yellows and orange on the table. Soft praise music drifts from the kitchen, muting her parents’ chattering voices. She smiles and resumes her beading.

    The words of this morning’s sermon fill her head.

    “You’ve been given a precious gift. Now you need to share it. God wants to loves the world—through you. Right now, as you sit her surrounded by His love, someone is hurting. Right now someone is calling out to God, asking Him if He truly cares. The question is, will you allow Him to love His broken children through you, or will you turn and walk away.”

    An image of Yavonne, her neighbor, lingers in her mind—the dark, almost hollow eyes, centered on the ground. Her shoulders, hunched forward. Her face hardened by anger and bitterness.

    Rachel shakes her head. Yavonne isn’t interested in Jesus. Yavonne isn’t interested in anything.

    “Will you share His love with a hurting world?”

    She rests her hand on the table as the question posed by her pastor nibbles at her heart.

    But of course she will. She does all the time. Last week she’d spent ten hours helping with Vacation Bible School. That’s sharing God’s love, right? And next Wednesday she plans to join the youth at the local women’s shelter.

    And yet, despite her rationale, peace evades her as the questions continued to rise.

    “What about now? Will you be there for my child now?”

    Her mother walks into the kitchen clutching a basket of laundry. “What’s wrong, sweetie? You like you’re about to swallow a lemon.”

    If only it were that easy.

    Yavonne rubs a bead between her index finger and thumb. “I’m not sure why, but I feel like God wants me to go talk to Yavonne.”

    “Then you should go.”

    “I don’t know…. Maybe I should pray about it.”

    “Or maybe you should obey.”

    Rachel sighs and pushes up from the table, her stomach flip-flopping.

    Her mother smiles. “I’ll be praying for you.”

    ***

    Yavonne’s hand trembles as she holds the thin razor blade against her clammy skin. Her veins form faint blue webbing through her wrist.

    Just do it, you coward. One slice and it’ll be all over. One cut—long, deep and quick. She closes her eyes and grits her teeth—

    A loud knock shakes her door. “Yavonne!”

    Yavonne’s breathe catche

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    21. Waiting on Wednesday: Try Not to Breathe by Jennifer R. Hubbard

    Waiting on Wednesday is a meme hosted by Breaking the Spine to highlight upcoming releases we're anxiously awaiting!

    Coming January 19, 2012!


    Try Not to Breathe by Jennifer R. Hubbard

    A dark and provocative novel from the author of The Secret Year

    Ryan spends most of his time alone at the local waterfall because it’s the only thing that makes him feel alive. He’s sixteen, post-suicidal, and trying to figure out what to do with himself after a stint in a mental hospital. Then Nicki barges into his world, brimming with life and energy, and asking questions about Ryan’s depression that no one else has ever been brave enough—or cared enough—to ask. Ryan isn’t sure why he trusts Nicki with his darkest secrets, but that trust turns out to be the catalyst that he desperately needs to start living again.

    Jennifer R. Hubbard has created a riveting story about a difficult but important subject.


    This novel just sounds amazing. You see a lot of YA novels about teens dealing with their best friend's suicide, or contemplating their own -- but I don't think I've seen any "post-suicidal" stories. It sounds like this novel is about facing the dark side of life, the things we're sometimes afraid to talk about. There's just something about this synopsis that immediately drew me in. I will definitely be reading this one the day it hits shelves.

    The Secret Year is sitting in my TBR. Have you read it? Are you a fan of Jennifer Hubbard?

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    22. Video on Teen Suicide Created by Teens

    If you’ve seen my It Gets Better video, or read some of my posts about Scars, you might know that I struggled with suicide as a teen, especially, but some other years as well. The emotional pain from the abuse and torture sometimes felt too unbearable, and when that was coupled with despair, I went past the planning stage and did try to kill myself. Being queer in a homophobic society also added to that.

    I’m glad I’m here. Things have gotten so much better. But suicide is still an issue for many teens (and, I think, survivors of abuse, and queer people experiencing great homophobia). One teen killing themselves every 17 seconds is way, way too many! The video below is powerful, and, I think, ultimately hopeful. I hope you’ll watch and share it.

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    23. The Book Review Club - Twisted

    Twisted
    Laurie Halse Anderson
    young adult

    It's not brand-spanking new like Wintergirls, but Twisted is definitely worth a read. First, it is not a girl book. I'm very into boy books these days since I'm working on one. Go figure! And it's a real gem to find a boy book that deals with boy emotions from a boy perspective BUT is written by a woman.

    A woman's approach to a male character and the result is all way in the forefront of my conscious writing after listening to Mike Sullivan speak at a conference I was speaking at last weekend. He drove home the point that we "girls" like connection and peaceful resolutions to problems. We're internally driven. Boys need to make connection. They need to experience tactile-y how something feels, works, and affects them. That's why they drive their bikes off of cliffs and that kind of extreme sports stuff. Sure, there are girls who do it too, and Sullivan says that both boy and girl readers who are reluctant readers share this hands-on approach to life. They need to experience.

    Having said that, as a woman, I felt like Anderson did a great job with bringing her boy character home. Granted in this story of the dweeb turned bad boy, there is the Anderson element of darkness. Tyler does ultimately consider suicide. He also considers blowing up his school. Hurting his peers. Shooting his father. Yet, in the end, he decides to make a turn. To man up and face up to his dad. To win respect with guts rather than guns.

    In all that, I can't help wondering if that's a woman's take or a man' reality. Trouble male teens don't all blow up schools or shoot themselves or hurt others. But, is the journey to manning up grittier and more experiential than even Anderson gives us? Compare her work to Walter Dean Myers' Monster. Myer's novel is rawer. It made me feel physically ill with worry as the character told his story. The emotion I came away with from Myers' work was uncomfortable. Unfamiliar. Unfemale.

    Can we women portray Myers' type of gritty male? Absolutely. If we're willing to understand it. Which may or may not take actually experiencing it like a man might choose to.

    What do you think? I'd really love some input on this. I'm trying to understand the male mojo. Not an easy feat. But doable, right?

    For more great reads, hop over to Barrie Summy's site. You're sure to Spring into something fun!

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    24. Fall For Anything

    Sixteen year old Eddie Reeves, just lost her father. He committed suicide and she desperately wants to find out why. Why did he commit suicide when it seemed that he was happy? He was a legendary photographer and a brilliant teacher, so why? To read more click here.

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    25. Chasing Brooklyn (YA)

    Chasing Brooklyn. Lisa Schroeder. 2010. Simon & Schuster. 412 pages.

    One year ago today I lost my boyfriend, Lucca.

    Chasing Brooklyn is a verse novel, a companion to I Heart You, You Haunt Me. Both are set in the same town, the same high school. Both novels are about the (extended) grieving process. When the novel opens, a year has passed since Lucca's death.

    The novel is told in two voices. Readers meet Lucca's girlfriend, Brooklyn, and his brother, Nico. Both are about to be haunted.

    Gabe, Lucca's friend, has recently overdosed. His death proves just how emotionally raw and vulnerable this community still is. Since his death, Brooklyn has been haunted. Her dreams are nightmares. The dream-Gabe that haunts her is chasing her, taunting her, almost threatening her.

    Nico is having troubling dreams as well--though not of Gabe. No, his brother is telling him night after night after night to help Brooklyn, to protect Brooklyn, to be there for her. So even though Nico and Brooklyn haven't had much to do with one another since Lucca's death, there's nothing he wouldn't do for his brother. So he takes the first steps and a friendship (of sorts) begins.

    Is Nico what Brooklyn needs to heal? Is Brooklyn what Nico needs to heal? Is Lucca drawing them together for a reason?

    The more I read of Lisa Schroeder, the more I like her work. I'd also recommend Far From You.

    © Becky Laney of Becky's Book Reviews

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