I had a good rant the other day about expecting more from people in regards to how things are handled, including their own responsibility, and being decent and fair with other people. We expect companies we deal with to act ethically and to listen to their customers’ concerns. We expect the authority we go to for help to listen to us and be honest. We expect the law and the judicial system to be fair and unbiased. We expect when we ask things from God we’ve been dreaming for, that good things will come, not horrible, ghastly things.
And then we are deeply disappointed.
I have clarity on a BIG LESSON. You shouldn’t expect something different from people or systems who are very dysfunctional and have no desire to learn, grow or change. My problem has been that I expected a different result, whether from a messed-up phone company who isn’t interested in what customers want or need, the judicial system who looks the other way when people lie and are dishonest in the courtroom, or a dysfunctional church that isn’t interested in the real concerns of the congregants.
But you know what? It felt too easy to fall into hopeless mode and swim around in depression and powerlessness.
You can expect more. Not from the same dysfunctional system. No, expect more however it comes. I expect more from God. I expect more miracles. I expect more support. I expect more help. I expect more from my life and better people in it. When my life doesn’t work or things are awful, instead of being stuck there, I expect better. I expect that God wants me to be happy and have what I need. Because without that expectation, we have nothing at all, and then we have our power taken away from us from all those dysfunctional people and systems who don’t listen or care.
And one more thing…
I will say this now and then I’m finally moving forward because it’s out of me and MY VOICE IS HEARD.
1. Judge Cele Hancock of Yavapai County, I witnessed you blacken records or prosecution did and you allowed it that would support the defendant’s story so you silenced his voice and took away his power. This is a fact. In your courtroom, I witnessed several people in the prosecution lied on the stand repeatedly and there is evidence to that fact that you refused to look at. I saw this. I witnessed this. I know this. Not lies or made it. I have evidence. You know they lied, and you don’t care, or you justified it. You based your decisions on their testimony. You believed things that weren’t factual but expected from others facts and evidence. If it was my courtroom, and there was that accusation, I would at least want to look into it. You will continue to look the other way and allow your own emotional bias, issues and emotions get in the way and many, many people will suffer and have their lives stripped from them.
2. Adult Probation in Yavapai County, I witnessed you lying, avoiding, covering up and treating people horribly and getting away with it. You constantly broke the law and didn’t have ethics, and yet you represented the law. You live with these facts and dishonesty everyday. It’s your karma now. I can’t imagine what quality of life you have knowing this. You will continue to abuse the abusers with no resolve. Who is worse?
3. Verde Valley Guidance Clinic, you were well aware we were dealing with a child who had a personality disorder and more serious mental illness because the records I was mysteriously not allowed to see, read you were watching for an AXIS 2 illness early on but neglected to mention it to the parents. When we wanted another psych evaluation, or thought this, you denied us and dismissed it. You also ignored and didn’t listen to my voice and my concerns. You will most likely continue to take in serious cases you can’t handle and then when things fall apart, deny it or do damage control, rather then refer them out to qualified professionals.
3. DES in Colorado, we told you we were first time parents and what we could handle, and you knew there were serious issues but you had no problem adopting the child out. You will do it again I am sure just to get the kids out the door. You did us a disservice but you did nothing to assist the child and her life.
Unless these organizations learn, grow, and change the cycles of dysfunction they will continue over and over. I wanted to educate them, but that doesn’t work! All we have are our voices even though they want to stifle them, so we need to speak out and speak up.
And we can expect more…be able to see dysfunctional systems quicker, move away from them, and move towards healthier support.
